cencal2235
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55, healthy, on TRT at 160/week for about 5 years. I have done a few 500 cycles in the past. I have done a few deca and anavar cycles in the past. Nothing but 160/wk TRT for over a year or so.
I take 10mg Cialis daily from legit GP doc. Started at 5 for about a year and went to 10 for about a year now.
I have lost most all of my sex drive.
Here is my situation so I can include details for insight.
WIfe died about 8 years ago from brain cancer. I didn't date for about a year. Then I did. It went well for a while but fell apart. I met a girl who wanted to be just FWB and that was good with me. Then i met another. Then another. Yes, then another. At one time, I had 6 women all as FWB. This was nice as someone who was with the same girl since I was 15 till she died. Never cheated.
That was too much too handle and keep everyone satisfied so a few faded out, which was fine. I was done to 3, which was a good balance and especially after having 6. I could actually have some free night to not do anything but chill out at home or whatever.
I have kind of been in that state for the past few years. One leaves the group - finds a boyfriend, falls in love with me when she knows I don't feel the same and leaves, moves away, etc. I come across another. Only one has been with me since the beginning.
Lately over the last month, I fucking dread having to maintain the "relationship" or lose it with all of them. I find myself "lying" that am sick, have a family thing, etc. to not spend time with any of them.
I am having a huge issue with finishing during sex over the last month. This has moved to being unable to stay hard during. I just 10000% lose all interest mid-fuck.
I don't know if this is a mental thing, an age thing, a hormone thing, wtf.
I literally had a woman just message me that "she wants to stop by on her way to work and suck me off and then go to work". She is porn start material at that task honestly but it made my stomach turn. I lied and said my sister was coming over for dinner and I couldn't. My sister lives 200 miles away!! lol
I don't know really know but I don't want to live without a sex drive. Eventually, I want to find ONE woman and maybe this is my sign/message to do just that and live a "normal" life.
No, I haven't gotten bloods done to what my status is. Last night was a wakeup call after losing it mid stream with a much above average looking woman. I just 100% lost interest mid-fuck like I said above. We have been together enough times where it wasn't a big deal for her but I stay awake a long time thinking things over. Not really sure who to ask about shit like this so I figured here even though I am not a well-known member.
Love any thoughts, advice, insight, etc.
I take 10mg Cialis daily from legit GP doc. Started at 5 for about a year and went to 10 for about a year now.
I have lost most all of my sex drive.
Here is my situation so I can include details for insight.
WIfe died about 8 years ago from brain cancer. I didn't date for about a year. Then I did. It went well for a while but fell apart. I met a girl who wanted to be just FWB and that was good with me. Then i met another. Then another. Yes, then another. At one time, I had 6 women all as FWB. This was nice as someone who was with the same girl since I was 15 till she died. Never cheated.
That was too much too handle and keep everyone satisfied so a few faded out, which was fine. I was done to 3, which was a good balance and especially after having 6. I could actually have some free night to not do anything but chill out at home or whatever.
I have kind of been in that state for the past few years. One leaves the group - finds a boyfriend, falls in love with me when she knows I don't feel the same and leaves, moves away, etc. I come across another. Only one has been with me since the beginning.
Lately over the last month, I fucking dread having to maintain the "relationship" or lose it with all of them. I find myself "lying" that am sick, have a family thing, etc. to not spend time with any of them.
I am having a huge issue with finishing during sex over the last month. This has moved to being unable to stay hard during. I just 10000% lose all interest mid-fuck.
I don't know if this is a mental thing, an age thing, a hormone thing, wtf.
I literally had a woman just message me that "she wants to stop by on her way to work and suck me off and then go to work". She is porn start material at that task honestly but it made my stomach turn. I lied and said my sister was coming over for dinner and I couldn't. My sister lives 200 miles away!! lol
I don't know really know but I don't want to live without a sex drive. Eventually, I want to find ONE woman and maybe this is my sign/message to do just that and live a "normal" life.
No, I haven't gotten bloods done to what my status is. Last night was a wakeup call after losing it mid stream with a much above average looking woman. I just 100% lost interest mid-fuck like I said above. We have been together enough times where it wasn't a big deal for her but I stay awake a long time thinking things over. Not really sure who to ask about shit like this so I figured here even though I am not a well-known member.
Love any thoughts, advice, insight, etc.













