Tough to watch...makes me sad.

[ldog]

 

[Augustine5I]

That channel has a ton of great interviews. Some very interesting conversations.

One I saw about a hacker. Was great.

Love that channel.


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[GYMnTONIC]

It is sad. He loves addiction more then life.

He's missing God, love and more. I've seen more then one addict "cured" when they have children. He's also missing "purpose".

I have had Fentanyl (legally) on several occasions in the Hospital for surgery. It is an immaculate drug. I prob can't say I have ever felt better in my entire life. I was on a table both times being cut open and I even woke up during surgery and I felt that I was floating off the table. My body felt relaxed. Tingly. Amazing. About the same feeling as an orgasm, except it lasts for minutes.

I went back to sleep on fentayl during a surgery and it was the best sleep I have ever had in my entire life. I remember it very very very clearly.

I have never used it illegally.

Based on my experience I am in no way surprised that an addict would be addicted to this. I am in no way surprised that an addict would find that "high" better then this life and this World. I genuinely feel for this man.

He will die from an overdose one day if you ask me.

I respect his honesty and I believe every word he has said.

 

[Rot-Iron66]

US (current admin) allows (WELCOMES) this shit to flow freely across the border.
Problem will only get worse...

 

[Augustine5I]

This

 

[zionoir626]

Hard to imagine anyone not effected by someone that's an addict in this DAY..
But when you hear someone talk about it that hasn't..you can tell the know Nothing about addiction..that's sad..
Just Say No..!!
Hell..why didn't I think of THAT..

There are countless reasons WHY it happens..and sometimes not resolving those deep issues is overlooked or not even brought to light..hence the high relapse numbers..

The Real Sad Thing:
Hospitals are giving it out like 🍬 at Times..
Just like Percs 10 yrs ago..
But this shit is 100x stronger..
Big Pharmaceutical Companies are pushing highly addictive drugs AGAIN...
What a Cluster F...
Z...

 

[Seattlesbest]

Drugs are a mother fucker. Life's hard and some people take a different path.

I seen alot of my friend die from pills. Thank God that shit just wasn't for me.

 

[weazel]

Hard thing to walk away from its not just the drugs it's the lifestyle,the ppl associated,the rush of illegal activities,etc.. been there done that rather not go back to it ever again.. it took me sitting there adding up the amount of time I'd been blitzed outa my mind. I started counting mths,wks,days,hrs,minutes then compared to how much actual time i wasn't possibly.. I quit that morning with a pile in front of me, the lifestyle changed that week, the friendships followed that mth, quit almost all crime in less than 3mths, lived a cleanish straightish life a year later..
Still a semi recovering addict but control the binge urges at least, only thing I stick to is juice and pot anymore it's healthier.

 

[Augustine5I]

We were poor growing up.

My dad had stomach surgery when I was really young. Like 3 or something.

He got addicted to percodan.

Doctor fed him scripts for over 10 years.

Lots of bad stories. Couldn’t keep a job Bc pills would run out. Go thru withdrawal.

We moved all the time. New schools all the time.

Change schools mid year. You know how fucking hard that is??

Didn’t even have 5 bucks for school trips.

So I know first hand. I beat the odds. My siblings aren’t addicts or in jail. We did okay thank God.

Pisses me off when I hear white privilege.

I earned from the bottom up.

Personal story. Don’t usually share…

 

[Seattlesbest]

We were poor growing up.

My dad had stomach surgery when I was really young. Like 3 or something.

He got addicted to percodan.

Doctor fed him scripts for over 10 years.

Lots of bad stories. Couldn’t keep a job Bc pills would run out. Go thru withdrawal.

We moved all the time. New schools all the time.

Change schools mid year. You know how fucking hard that is??

Didn’t even have 5 bucks for school trips.

So I know first hand. I beat the odds. My siblings aren’t addicts or in jail. We did okay thank God.

Pisses me off when I hear white privilege.

I earned from the bottom up.

Personal story. Don’t usually share…

Sounds alot like mine. My Dad was a raging alcoholic my mom was a prostitute addicted to crack. I mean I'm fucked up, but I made it out and am doing great. If we can keep are shit together anyone can! Don't get me wrong it's a daily struggle not to self sabotage my life lol.
Glad to see you made it to.

100% with you on the white privilege. Suck my cock.

 

[zionoir626]

We were poor growing up.

My dad had stomach surgery when I was really young. Like 3 or something.

He got addicted to percodan.

Doctor fed him scripts for over 10 years.

Lots of bad stories. Couldn’t keep a job Bc pills would run out. Go thru withdrawal.

We moved all the time. New schools all the time.

Change schools mid year. You know how fucking hard that is??

Didn’t even have 5 bucks for school trips.

So I know first hand. I beat the odds. My siblings aren’t addicts or in jail. We did okay thank God.

Pisses me off when I hear white privilege.

I earned from the bottom up.

Personal story. Don’t usually share…

Hell..did I grow up with you and get in the head by a horse..But such a similar life we both had..never unpacked boxes because moving in three months..Funny thing,they will throw you out if you don't pay rent..

Ragging alcoholics and Not to mention blood spilled nearly every night..Plus parents didn't encourage us or guide us in anyway..Ever..

I had my run with things as well..but not ANYMORE..My kids might have a drink every now and then..but my oldest brother's family is pretty bad OFF..Meth..H..pills..not good and I really don't think he gives 2 shits..and he's mostly at fault..WoW
Great Parenting Skills THERE..

I've ran into many..many addicts that just need..some care..and a little push in the Right direction and I've known some that never plan to STOP..

Hard in this country to get real help..if you really need it..States are always cutting programs and without insurance it's nearly impossible..

Which bring up budget..Fed..State..County..
It's all about cut backs and not enough money for the homeless..mentally ill..homeless vets.. basically the less fortunate of us..
YET
I'm betting if the real numbers were revealed of what cost what..
These programs would have been paid for with Half of what we just sent to Ukraine..
And the other half could fund cops(sorry,real MEN)to protect our children in schools..

So...again how is policing the World help our People HERE..??
It Doesn't and Never Has..
Z...

 

[GYMnTONIC]

Sounds alot like mine. My Dad was a raging alcoholic my mom was a prostitute addicted to crack. I mean I'm fucked up, but I made it out and am doing great. If we can keep are shit together anyone can! Don't get me wrong it's a daily struggle not to self sabotage my life lol.
Glad to see you made it to.

100% with you on the white privilege. Suck my cock.

I was lucky my parents never used substances. I have the best Mom on the face of the Earth.

We grew up super dirt poor. I recall my kitchen table as a kid was cinder blocks with a piece of plywood on top and a shitty red and white tablecloth.

My dad was a POS, he abandoned us all. I have 5 sisters and my mom raised us all. He didn't use drugs or alcohol but I literally only was raised by my mother. I have no clue what it's like to have a father. I haven't even seen the guy in 25-30 years? Zero clue where he is and I could care less too.

Which is why I am a fantastic father. I love my kids more then life itself and I do and give them everything I never had. But most importantly they have my time, attention and love. I give them everything I never had.

I think having no father was better then having an alcoholic or drug addicted father. I feel for you guys that wen't through that.

I often wonder what my life would be like had I had a father. My kids always ask for a "grandpa" but they don't have one.

 

[zionoir626]

We had that very same table cloth..our table was an old door or blocks..very nice..
Z...

 

[Seattlesbest]

I was lucky my parents never used substances. I have the best Mom on the face of the Earth.

We grew up super dirt poor. I recall my kitchen table as a kid was cinder blocks with a piece of plywood on top and a shitty red and white tablecloth.

My dad was a POS, he abandoned us all. I have 5 sisters and my mom raised us all. He didn't use drugs or alcohol but I literally only was raised by my mother. I have no clue what it's like to have a father. I haven't even seen the guy in 25-30 years? Zero clue where he is and I could care less too.

Which is why I am a fantastic father. I love my kids more then life itself and I do and give them everything I never had. But most importantly they have my time, attention and love. I give them everything I never had.

I think having no father was better then having an alcoholic or drug addicted father. I feel for you guys that wen't through that.

I often wonder what my life would be like had I had a father. My kids always ask for a "grandpa" but they don't have one.

Damn, no real excuse. That's interesting. Why a man would leave his kids is mind blowing to me. Much respect for your mom doin that job. That fuckin insane. Now that I have 2 kids I really understand how hard it would be with just one parent. Your moms bad ass.

I think having no dad would have been better for me. I try my hardest to not be like that fuckin asshole, but I see the same shit in me that I still hate him to this day for. I always said I'll never be anything like that pos but man, I'm not sure anymore. I'm fuckin him lol.

But I'm tryin to turn it around. I think I crashed my AI, lol. Gettin a little deep here I apologize.

One last thing bro, your jacked. Life is good for you. How did you find balance? Between life and the gym? Thanks man appreciate you!

 

[Augustine5I]

Hell..did I grow up with you and get in the head by a horse..But such a similar life we both had..never unpacked boxes because moving in three months..Funny thing,they will throw you out if you don't pay rent..

Ragging alcoholics and Not to mention blood spilled nearly every night..Plus parents didn't encourage us or guide us in anyway..Ever..

I had my run with things as well..but not ANYMORE..My kids might have a drink every now and then..but my oldest brother's family is pretty bad OFF..Meth..H..pills..not good and I really don't think he gives 2 shits..and he's mostly at fault..WoW
Great Parenting Skills THERE..

I've ran into many..many addicts that just need..some care..and a little push in the Right direction and I've known some that never plan to STOP..

Hard in this country to get real help..if you really need it..States are always cutting programs and without insurance it's nearly impossible..

Which bring up budget..Fed..State..County..
It's all about cut backs and not enough money for the homeless..mentally ill..homeless vets.. basically the less fortunate of us..
YET
I'm betting if the real numbers were revealed of what cost what..
These programs would have been paid for with Half of what we just sent to Ukraine..
And the other half could fund cops(sorry,real MEN)to protect our children in schools..

So...again how is policing the World help our People HERE..??
It Doesn't and Never Has..
Z...

My dad got clean for awhile.

For him, getting into a fight with my oldest brother woke him up.

Sadly, later on when he got older and had pain, doctor put him in “pain management.”

Essentially back on pills. And he didn’t give a crap.

Justifying it. Idk

When I was a kid, he would run out of pills. Break the house up into pieces. Destroy what little we had… make my mom go to the doctor to beg for more.

Funny thing, in all that time… doctor never saw my dad. My mom went on his behalf for 10 years.

And he always gave her a script.

We all have stories.

Like Wes i love my son. And I am completely a different dad.

Idk if I heard my mom or dad tell any of us that they loved us more then a couple of times.

I tell my son every day.

 

[GYMnTONIC]

Damn, no real excuse. That's interesting. Why a man would leave his kids is mind blowing to me. Much respect for your mom doin that job. That fuckin insane. Now that I have 2 kids I really understand how hard it would be with just one parent. Your moms bad ass.

I think having no dad would have been better for me. I try my hardest to not be like that fuckin asshole, but I see the same shit in me that I still hate him to this day for. I always said I'll never be anything like that pos but man, I'm not sure anymore. I'm fuckin him lol.

But I'm tryin to turn it around. I think I crashed my AI, lol. Gettin a little deep here I apologize.

One last thing bro, your jacked. Life is good for you. How did you find balance? Between life and the gym? Thanks man appreciate you!

As for no father I just coped.

I never had one so it's kinda like the unknown.

I started skating and surfing at 4 and competing. And I always wanted muscles. I watched GI Joe and Mask in the 80s. I had some older kids who mentored me. I was buddies w skaters , surfers, the lacrosse and football team. I played sports in elementary, middle and high school. In college the lacrosse team took me under their wing.

Their top guy was benching 405. Before u know it I was hitting 500,525 then 555? At 220 or less. On a ton of gear.

I never let my personal stuff get in the way. I was a judge for Worlds Strongest Man at 32?

 

[Augustine5I]

As for no father I just coped.

I never had one so it's kinda like the unknown.

I started skating and surfing at 4 and competing. And I always wanted muscles. I watched GI Joe and Mask in the 80s. I had some older kids who mentored me. I was buddies w skaters , surfers, the lacrosse and football team. I played sports in elementary, middle and high school. In college the lacrosse team took me under their wing.

Their top guy was benching 405. Before u know it I was hitting 500,525 then 555? At 220 or less. On a ton of gear.

I never let my personal stuff get in the way. I was a judge for Worlds Strongest Man at 32?


Proportionately I was devastating anyone in my class. It's bc I pushed weight harder then anyone. Also I trained w guys like Poundstone and Pudzianowski. I never came close to them but I chased them.

When I competed against guys my weight I made them look silly.

It's all relative.

What has been your top PR for 1 rep on bench, squat and deadlift??


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[Seattlesbest]

As for no father I just coped.

I never had one so it's kinda like the unknown.

I started skating and surfing at 4 and competing. And I always wanted muscles. I watched GI Joe and Mask in the 80s. I had some older kids who mentored me. I was buddies w skaters , surfers, the lacrosse and football team. I played sports in elementary, middle and high school. In college the lacrosse team took me under their wing.

Their top guy was benching 405. Before u know it I was hitting 500,525 then 555? At 220 or less. On a ton of gear.

I never let my personal stuff get in the way. I was a judge for Worlds Strongest Man at 32?

Sounds like you had alot of good role models. I think that is key. Staying busy and having the right friends. Sounds like you got shit figured out early. Respect!

 

[j.n]

I have had too many friends die from addiction. Sad way to exist and sad way to die.

 

[ldog]

This

I like this alot bro

 

[ldog]

Hard thing to walk away from its not just the drugs it's the lifestyle,the ppl associated,the rush of illegal activities,etc.. been there done that rather not go back to it ever again.. it took me sitting there adding up the amount of time I'd been blitzed outa my mind. I started counting mths,wks,days,hrs,minutes then compared to how much actual time i wasn't possibly.. I quit that morning with a pile in front of me, the lifestyle changed that week, the friendships followed that mth, quit almost all crime in less than 3mths, lived a cleanish straightish life a year later..
Still a semi recovering addict but control the binge urges at least, only thing I stick to is juice and pot anymore it's healthier.

Proud of you dude

 

[ldog]

When I posted this, I had no idea that it would cause so much interest and reaction...maybe I should have foreseen this.

Regardless...I'm proud of everyone who has risen above their circumstances or who is currently in process.

Keep pushing...stay hard...never give up.

 

[BigPain]

This

That is true

 

[zionoir626]

When I posted this, I had no idea that it would cause so much interest and reaction...maybe I should have foreseen this.

Regardless...I'm proud of everyone who has risen above their circumstances or who is currently in process.

Keep pushing...stay hard...never give up.

No Idog it's good you struck a spark..
Another problem that WON'T go away if we ignore it..and the first step IS talking about it..
Sorry...yrs ago my attitude was..."As long it isn't in my backyard..!!"
Well today.."It's in everybody's Front yard..!!"
Z...

 

[weazel]

No Idog it's good you struck a spark..
Another problem that WON'T go away if we ignore it..and the first step IS talking about it..
Sorry...yrs ago my attitude was..."As long it isn't in my backyard..!!"
Well today.."It's in everybody's Front yard..!!"
Z...

I live in the roughest trailer park in the county... my neighbors I speak with on the daily that I treat as friends...yeah all of them slangn,selling,buying,gangbanging,whatever.. every single person here is strung out lol I'm just here in the middle like wtf am I seeing!
You name it I can walk less than 100yards in any direction have anything you ask its crazy.

 

[zionoir626]

Why are you still there my Friend..??
If I may ask..
Z...

 

[ldog]

No Idog it's good you struck a spark..
Another problem that WON'T go away if we ignore it..and the first step IS talking about it..
Sorry...yrs ago my attitude was..."As long it isn't in my backyard..!!"
Well today.."It's in everybody's Front yard..!!"
Z...

Your very right my friend...the Fall of Rome right before our eyes.

 

[weazel]

Why are you still there my Friend..??
If I may ask..
Z...

Cause dumby me doesn't believe in cash, every dollar I've ever had to spare gets spent on investments...problem is when you have so many assets,specific items,expensive objects they're a pain to move in a crap economy especially in the summer for weapon sales. I can break even or profit its hard for me to take a loss on any of investments since I live off the profits per year. My area in TN is the most over priced land in the country right now from all the outsiders moving here because of the lower land prices (last year) skyrocketing from all the moving in they love our low taxs.. thus causing rent,lot rent,apartments,etc to sky rocket... shit hole apartments they just built all around my park to cram middle class ppl in went from $650 to $1300 for single bed/bathroom MTH rent only...

Trying to find a nice lot kind of private on the lake to park my super nice camper on way nicer than the trailer I live in, its like a $50k+ camper...just gotta find the spot and price right..

I do get along better tho with criminals than reg folk it seems, that and veterans I click with well. I'd say it's more a "hey they've been thru shit like me probably they can't all be terrible " I've sat with 4guys separate occasions this wk that spent yrs in prison chilling at a friend's place..he said idk how you do it bud but I've never seen those guys talk to someone and get along with them so well like you do lol, me and one fella even had a disagreement on things it was just hey that's just how it is bud I'm not judging you for what you did stay free don't go back Is all fucking dude respected that smiles everytime he sees me now that and our tats match lol.

 

[muay thai]

all of the soft white underbellys are insane

i was addicted to fentanyl last summer after my diaulid script ran out from doctor (first time I have ever taken opiates)
I was cutting lines of fetanyl with crystal (meth), juiced out, and using xanax to sleep at night and trazodone . Then I tried heroin china white #4. I was 34 and never have even been round heroin, i just decided to order iton DNM and try it. Was not my thing. neither was fetanyl at all, but once you take a hit or a corner of a line you feel the best you have ever felt for about 3 hours, then you get sick, even if its your first time you get sick within 3-4 hours of your FIRST dose, and its the worst kind of jumping you've ever had, beyond painful experience physically and mentally, so people keep going, and keep scoring,a few months later I saved my aryan brother hood neighbor who OD on it. gave him CPR and NARCAN. He bought me a steak dinner, haven't heard from him since. fent does NOT even feel good,. heroin felt good. ketamine i had a script for too. Sad

I buried about 4-5 homeys in the last few years, close homeys on this crap. business owners, guys in good physical shape on juice. everything you get is stomped out with this shit (cut)

 

[zionoir626]

It's nondescriminate it can happen to anyone..at anytime..
These drugs are so addictive,one use can be all it takes..Sadly,I've been in many Rehabs,wasn't smart enough to get it the first 5 times..and there are countless reasons why..and sometimes No Reason at ALL..
Wasn't until I turned and Faced my Demons head on..that things for Me changed..No matter why..people need help out of this evil..but without insurance today..Good Luck..
BUT
Until the one suffering wants a change its nearly impossible..I say nearly,because Family should Never give up on Them..Got to find a way..before the Worst happens..
And gone like so many Others..
Sorry Thai..but know we pick eachother up around HERE..Maybe me the most..
Z...