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My Apologies..E.J.D..I Was Out-of-Line..

zionoir626

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Get Shredded!
Please allow me to expand...
These last few months have been most difficult..
Between firing my C Dr...constant testing..CT scans..MRI's..bloodwork (fasting)..X-rays..and another close pass with Death..
Not to mention...
Coming off alcohol and gummies, that was my go to to control pain and anxiety...and pain pills that wouldn't fix a headache..
I'm Off my Game..
Then add...
Dr.s lying to my face,constant trouble with my service dog...and him getting too old to do his job..Inwhich I have no replacement..and dealing with uprising complications from head injuries...20+ falls in 2 yrs..cracks in my skull ..

And that's maybe halfway through my daily struggle..
And if things don't turn around..likely to loose the ability to speak..

And let me add...
If anyone gives me pity..I'll kick your Ass...

But...
Am I laying down...???
The Opposite actually..back two weeks in the Gym..after the first 15 days of November in bed..

At some point...you have to say..Fuck It..!!
And decide too quit or Continue..
Doubt will kill you quicker than driving Paul Walker's 918...lol
I'm no Jan Michael Vincent...most won't get that..lol
So...I'm a big man..E.J.D. ..I over reacted and for that sir...I'm truly Sorry..
I wish many times in life...I could go back and erase wrong doings..
But ...we can't..

But I can learn from this..and be a better person..
I have been troubled lately with everything going on..
I haven't delt with my sisters passing Yet..
That's going to hurt whenever it comes..
My youngest memory of her was terrifying..
My drunk father broke her nose with a shotgun butt..blood was everywhere and I remember my hands covered in her blood..
I couldn't protect her then, just as I wasn't when she was dying from cancer...

I hope this explains why..??
Not that it's an excuse, but rather an insight on what's going on in Z's life..
No one wants this shit..Not even Me....
Again I'm sad to have lashed out..
I don't want to be that type of person..
Much Respect to you..
Z...
 

zionoir626

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BTW...
That was a peak into what we go through..
Not to be wanting any pity or remorse..
I didn't pick this Battle..C choose me..
I'll fight it like every other Battle in my past..
Head up..balls out..and with every grain of Salt in me..
Cheers
Z...
 

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That’s a lot of stuff to deal with Z.. I doubt anyone doubts your character my friend. Most of us have our days but good to see you taking the high road (as expected you would).
 

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Just pm'ed you...
Love you Brother..
Oh, that shit...I got this...lol
Z...
 

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Damn, I’m new here and do not know what prompted any lashing out you may have previously done. Your post was from the heart and I felt compelled to reply that I’m praying for you, not out of any pity but that you will continue to strengthen and heal as you have the heart of a warrior.
 

zionoir626

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Damn, I’m new here and do not know what prompted any lashing out you may have previously done. Your post was from the heart and I felt compelled to reply that I’m praying for you, not out of any pity but that you will continue to strengthen and heal as you have the heart of a warrior.
I'm just an average Joe...nothing special about me, Brother...hard headed perhaps..lol
Welcome aboard...you found probably the best BB FORUM out there..
Happy to say many are great friends..
Thanks for the kind reply..
We help each other here, with more than gear stuff..
Z...
 

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Well that was a nice read this morning, good t[ see that squashed, high road & such..most guys just let shit sit instead of moving foward..
& Z.you r a bit hard-headed, but myself also & I do appreciate your cocky witty ness..
All jokes aside tho I see most of the men in my fam go thru what you r going thru,can be tough,but keep pushing foward.no pitty huh
Now have a great day you tough s.o.b 💪 respect 🙏
 

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Dont know EJD or what happened but we all know you're going through a lot z. Keep the positive outlook.

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