Just Worn Out..Taking a Long Break..!!

[zionoir626]

With everything going on and that Troll..
I think it’s best I bow out...
Got alot going on and promises that have to be Kept..
Tired of posting the same thing..day after day..
Nobody really listens anyway..

You guys have a great holiday season and if I don't return...
Good Luck to All
Zion...

 

[Bolan]

With everything going on and that Troll..
I think it’s best I bow out...
Got alot going on and promises that have to be Kept..
Tired of posting the same thing..day after day..
Nobody really listens anyway..

You guys have a great holiday season and if I don't return...
Good Luck to All
Zion...

We all listen Z.
And we'll see you soon.

 

[rdm]

The ones who actually want help and not confirmation bias listen. The people who already know what they're doing enjoy your banter.

You know what's best for you but we will patiently await your return.

 

[E.J.D]

Don't be a defeatist. People listen and are here for you. Collect yourself and come back swinging. Your a fighter

 

[zionoir626]

So..fighting for seven yrs on a three yr Cancer is Quitting..WOW...
Never would have expected that..guess I really don't know people here..
Should have done it 9 yrs ago then..
I'm a Defeatist...and a Bully..
Out...

 

[JJB1]

So..fighting for seven yrs on a three yr Cancer is Quitting..WOW...
Never would have expected that..guess I really don't know people here..
Should have done it 9 yrs ago then..
I'm a Defeatist...and a Bully..
Out...

Hang in there.
Have a Happy Thanksgiving.

 

[TopDawg]

This entire board is here and behind you. If you need a break, we support it. Just know that many, including myself, enjoy reading your posts. Some days I glance at the board and wonder what is going on in the mind of Z.

Enjoy your break and more importantly, your family.

 

[CompoundLifts31]

Head held high...
Hope to see you again soon..
Happy Thanksgiving...
CL out....


See how I did that?

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[zionoir626]

Don't be a defeatist. People listen and are here for you. Collect yourself and come back swinging. Your a fighter

I literally can't even believe you said that...
You have any fucking idea what I go thru hourly every fucking day...
NO...YOU DON'T...
Do you know what it's like to watch my girl cry every fucking day..to stay away from people, due to being sick and embarrassed..
No..you don't..!!
I thought you were a Friend
No..You're Not..
As soon as get Farma paid.
I'll demand total removal of my account and post..

That shit hurt...and was disrespectful at Best..
I've tried my best to help here and to hear that cut the fuck out of me..
Lost 4 people last month including my sister..
Dude...I lost all respect for you..
Nearly died 3 times in two years and you say that..
You walk around with a WBC at 43.5..and I'll look your way..

Defeatist....a who are you to say..
You woke up the Old Z..and I'm NOT Being Disrespected like that..

Nothing you can ever say to change my hate towards you..
Pick up the phone and tell my girl I'm a quitter..and I'll watch her dismantle you..
Karma is bitch and got to say..
That's dirty shit..
I wouldn't help you if you were nearly dead..because I am..and I'm in pain like a mother fucker, but thanks for the lesson on shitty ass people..
Damn you can kamikaze a friendship..
Just WOW...
Z...

 

[E.J.D]

With everything going on and that Troll..
I think it’s best I bow out...
Got alot going on and promises that have to be Kept..
Tired of posting the same thing..day after day..
Nobody really listens anyway..

You guys have a great holiday season and if I don't return...
Good Luck to All
Zion...

Looking at this post starting at tired of posting the same thing day after day. Nobody really listens anyway. I'm not sure what the troll is about.

You are giving up posting here thinking nobody cares or listens. Which couldn't be farther from the truth. You are accepting failure. You should keep posting away.

I mean no disrespect to you in anyway. You are correct I have zero idea what you go through everyday. You took my post and ran in a direction that it was never intended to be ran to. Your journey and battle is inspiring to others.

 

[zionoir626]

Having to keep my wife from posting, she's pissed..
To everyone else..
Happy Thanksgiving..
Z...

 

[zionoir626]

Looking at this post starting at tired of posting the same thing day after day. Nobody really listens anyway. I'm not sure what the troll is about.

You are giving up posting here thinking nobody cares or listens. Which couldn't be farther from the truth. You are accepting failure. You should keep posting away.

I mean no disrespect to you in anyway. You are correct I have zero idea what you go through everyday. You took my post and ran in a direction that it was never intended to be ran to. Your journey and battle is inspiring to others.

Sorry...
The disrespect was taken..and you are WAY out-of-line..
Walk in our shoes for a month..
You ass, sorry I considered you a friend..
True colors really showed..
Please just go away and fuck somebody else's day up..

Hey, go to the Cancer ward and say that shit..
And watch what happens..
You are a heartless bastard..
People like you, is why I'm leaving..

And for you information, if someone with Cancer wants to Quit...
Who the Fuck are you to ever say a Word.
Not knowing what it's Like..

My wife wants to take your head off..
I just might let her.
Z...

 

[zionoir626]

BTW..
I spent 3 yrs..
Bed to Coach...never touched grass for 3 yrs..
If I was a quitter I wouldn't have made it through 900+ days of Hell..
Go try that shit...

But I thank you for that kick in the teeth..
I thrive when I'm pissed..and you filled the tank..

Perhaps...I need too thank you..
I'm mad, pissed and more motivated than ever..
I never will quit Fighting..if you really knew me,you'd know Me...

I'm over sensitive...today..
And for that..I apologize..
Looking at my phone and seeing phone numbers, of ones gone hit me today..

I down play my condition..know that..!!
I'm seeing my grandchildren Xmas, and it's going to be impossible to hide C..
Looking into the eyes of family, and see their pain..that's straight pain..

It didn't come out right..let's leave it at that..
I'm forgiving for most part.
This ones going to take time..
I do know you didn't mean harm.
But that fucking hurt...

I apologize...not the man I want to Be...
Yesterday, was another dead-end..
So many problems and not many wins..
Please be more respectful to people fighting like Hell to live...
Z...

 

[Wiseguy]

Take care of your self and family first my friend. Wishing you the best and hope to see you return when you are good and ready.

Happy thanksgiving

 

[Jbswole40]

Z...,stay strong & positive, I can only speak for myself,but I listen & love the things you say/post..always great for a laugh or a serious discussion , much luv u z....

 

[zionoir626]

I need to spend the time on here loving the one's around me, not dealing with trolls or foolish shit..if I pass Tomorrow, Judy would be in trouble..I can't have that..just Won't..
Problem is my condition is excelerating..We are not getting any good results..
And with two C's,neck nerve damage and stomach problems..Not to mention the returning external Bleeding..
That's a shit ton too face each and every day...times 7 yrs..
Look up Mantle Cell None HL...and that's a Dragon..that's enough by itself..

I have to watch what it does to Judy, every stinking day..tried running her off..many times..
Add 4 deaths and active PTSD..
I really don't know anyone that would fight this Battle... But I'm doing it not for Me..
But to give hope to others with a lighter C..that need inspiration from someone that's been there..
Z...

 

[TheOldJJdigs]

BTW..
I spent 3 yrs..
Bed to Coach...never touched grass for 3 yrs..
If I was a quitter I wouldn't have made it through 900+ days of Hell..
Go try that shit...

But I thank you for that kick in the teeth..
I thrive when I'm pissed..and you filled the tank..

Perhaps...I need too thank you..
I'm mad, pissed and more motivated than ever..
I never will quit Fighting..if you really knew me,you'd know Me...

I'm over sensitive...today..
And for that..I apologize..
Looking at my phone and seeing phone numbers, of ones gone hit me today..

I down play my condition..know that..!!
I'm seeing my grandchildren Xmas, and it's going to be impossible to hide C..
Looking into the eyes of family, and see their pain..that's straight pain..

It didn't come out right..let's leave it at that..
I'm forgiving for most part.
This ones going to take time..
I do know you didn't mean harm.
But that fucking hurt...

I apologize...not the man I want to Be...
Yesterday, was another dead-end..
So many problems and not many wins..
Please be more respectful to people fighting like Hell to live...
Z...

Z…. You know I don’t bullshit. There isn’t a guy on this site that doesn’t think about you, worry about your situation, or pull for you on an everyday basis. We just talked the other day brother…. About how ASF is more of a family than anything. And we both know this but families argue at times and say shit they don’t mean… I’m not going to suggest anything for you to take his comment in any different way than you did. Only you know how that made you feel… but I also know you. You have more love and caring for the men on this board than anyone I know. I don’t bullshit and I say it how it needs to be said… I know that’s why me and you get along so well and why we’re good friends. ASF is a place that needs a mixture of all types of people…. Sometimes words over a message board or text message come across in a way they weren’t meant… sometimes they do are meant in that way.

All I know is I love ya buddy. You’re from the older school of thought… the good days. I value every single post you make and I see how helpful you are with the younger guys… hell even the VETS.

Perhaps that comment came out wrong. I know you… give him the opportunity to clear it up and take his word for it… just hear him out. We all know you don’t have a defeatist bone in your body Z lol.

You’re the hardest, strongest, thick headed son of a bitch I know

Side note… I know what your girl is going through. I know man… it’s killing her inside to watch you battle. Z…. There are people here that love you man… guys that need you and guys that rely on you.

The last thing I would do is try to give you advice. My view on this is hear this man out and let him tell you his side of things. It’s Thanksgiving and it could have been a fast post as he’s running around getting his kids changed for the day or in front of a stove with guests on the way. Hear him out Z… we all say things we might not mean and sometimes it comes across the wrong way my friend.

I hope everything I said right now is okay with you… I say it from knowing you for a very long time and I say it with love my good friend.

JJ

 

[Boykinben82]

Happy Thanksgiving Z… I hope you have the best day you possibly can. I’m here if you need me.