Fighting Depression..!!

[zionoir626]

Hard to find anyone nowadays not dealing with Depression..in one form or another..

This is another Thread dealing with Mental Illness..
In the Hope of opening up of Others to Benifit..those that think They're Alone..

Personal Insight
I deal with Depression daily..sometimes mildly, sometimes Not..
Some decisions I've had to make lately have been have turned tits up..!!
Honestly, since my girl passed in December, it's been really hard..
I, like most, Isolate...
That's the First Big Red Flag..!!!

Without getting to deep..I haven't been doing too well physically..
Stress,Anxiety and Yes..Fear.
Has been running unchecked..and for years..
Coupled with some bad luck and rash,hail Marrys...
I found myself going down that same Dead End Road...

Luckily...
I have some incredibly great Friends...Family isn't worth a shit..and in a few days,I'll have cut all Ties..
After, some long days in my head...beating myself up about things I had absolutely No Control over...
Feeling Hopeless and Worthless..
I am Almost in the Clear..

Depression doesn't care about who you are,what you've accomplished...
How much money you pull down, how important you are..
Depression is a silent Apex Predator...
Probably with more kills than Small Pox..

We all get down...All..
Without the bad times..it's hard to appreciate the Great Moments in Life..
It's just part of Life...

Dealing with it in a Positive Manner...
That's the Problem..

Most..turn to quick fixes..
Self Medicating, Alcohol or Way Worse..
Which only throws gasoline on the Problem..
Toss in some Guilt and Shame..
And down Suicide Lane we Go..
At least it gets that way with Me..

TBH....
Gabriel is the One Reason...
I'm probably still Here..
Not only has he saved my ass from death many times before..from my lovely symptoms of C...
But...
He's like a son to me..we to depend on each other to survive..
I couldn't ever abandon him..
Without the other...we aren't whole..

So..this Month's Discussion on Mental Illness is focused on..
DEPRESSION..

For those who deal with it, fight with it ...
Share some of your experiences, battles and Victories...

Peel Back the Illusion...Debunk the beliefs that Depression doesn't Kill...

Let's talk about the Unspeakable...
There's No shame in being depressed...
The Only shame...
Is not doing something about before its..
Too Late..
Z...

 

[stinkfingerdelux]

Been on the highs n lows Rollercoaster this year. More so the lows. But whenever I see this thread come up. I always appreciate seeing it. And rarely make a comment. Guess in a vein attempt to mask the idea of outright saying I'm struggling. I mean. I know I am. But it changes tone when vocalized one way or another. I guess it hits home harder once you finally say to yourself or someone. Life's got me on my Knees again. It's not always easy admitting defeat or asking for help. Though it's not frowned upon. There are times your past struggles get brought up when u finally feel like ur on the high horse again. I often feel that I'm the happiest person that doesn't wanna be here. But I do. I wanna be here. The trees the animals the stars. There's so. Much beauty that I adore here. My family. Don't get me. Started. Love the shit out of these people.
It's the structure of our society that makes Me Say ew. We totally have the ability to make this a great place to be. But numbers in a book or bank account prevent us all from being safe and stable. You guys know the history of my. Amazing ass pimple. (hidradenitis) after 3 surgery's in a hospital and 2 surgeons. They were like. Sorry can't help you. Your on your own. That was scary. Almost ended it back then. And I'm. Grateful for all your help with the financial aspect and the support you guys gave me. You don't have to be homeless or a junkie to live in the struggle. I'm sure it happens to fortune 500 folks to. We all have the ability to be brought to our knees. Some are circumstantial. Some bad luck. Some earned. We all bleed the same.
Be strong be well. Be here.
Anyone struggling. I'm down to chat if you wanna. Get shit off your chest n vent or just to goof off n tell jokes to smile. I could use someone at times. So. I'm sure you can do.


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[zionoir626]

Thanks for chiming in Stink..
I remember telling my girl year after year fight C...
"I'm not wasting a Beautiful Day..!!"
I would have to take a change of clothes, due to my stomach problems..shitty myself without warning..
She would always try to convince me to rest..
Fuck That..!!
I'll rest when I'm dead..!!

It's wasn't ever easy...still isn't after nearly a decade of Fighting..

But...Life is how you see it..!!
Often I only see the Bad..
And..overlooked the Majestic Wonder of Life..
Z...

 

[Jbswole40]

Plenty of highs & lows..Can't find a medium, I act out when I'm low,it serves no purpose, I only hurt people around me bcus I'm feeling down..I realize what I am doing after the fact..coping skills is something I lack..when u born,raised and live in chaos it becomes normal.being at peace is something I'm not used to..I want to find it..I'm getting to old for all the conflicts, drama,etc..it's extremely exhausting..

 

[zionoir626]

Derailing Depression is very important..
Because the longer we wallow in It,the more damaging it becomes..
J40...knowing what you're doing is Step#1...

Making a Conscious decision to change your behavior..
Well,that's the super hard part..

I can only say I've failed more times than I've won..Fighting Depression...
But..
Battles are won and lost..
It's the War...
You want to Win..!!

I found in deepest moments of despair...
Reaching out to Friends..
Talking about It..
Remembering the Good Times in Life..
Setting Goals..
A Vacation, if only a day..
Just doing something to break that upcoming Train Wreck..

Don't get me Wrong..
I'm not free of it...may Never be..
I've got a long way to go..
But...
We can find strength in each other's struggles..
And, realized...
It's entirely up to Us..
Z...

 

[jrup1986]

Walking backwards helps your pre frontal cortex. This is all the things your pre frontal cortex does and the diff disorders .

Walk backwards bro 100 steps backwards is equal to 1000 forward. It'll make your head hurt

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[Sirchon]

I deal with it. 99 percent sure it's CTE-related. Ramping different compounds exacerbates it too. The gym does help me though, a good workout changes my whole mood.

it's hard to talk to people that don't understand. But sometimes just talking helps.

 

[jrup1986]

I deal with it. 99 percent sure it's CTE-related. Ramping different compounds exacerbates it too. The gym does help me though, a good workout changes my whole mood.

it's hard to talk to people that don't understand. But sometimes just talking helps.

This offer is for anyone ..if u guys need to talk I'm available..I'll even give you my number. I know what it's like to be ignored and feel alone. If I give you my number know that I do so as a friend . Do not make me an enemy

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[zionoir626]

This offer is for anyone ..if u guys need to talk I'm available..I'll even give you my number. I know what it's like to be ignored and feel alone. If I give you my number know that I do so as a friend . Do not make me an enemy

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Brother...
I know you take a lot of crap here at times..maybe some you bring on yourself..
But, I've read probably 90% of your post..
Your Hearts in the right place..
We all contribute to the Whole..one way or another..
I might not agree with you at Times..but I see past alot..
And, read between the Lines..

Keep your head up..
Do You..and Get Stronger..!!
Z...

 

[jrup1986]

Brother...
I know you take a lot of crap here at times..maybe some you bring on yourself..
But, I've read probably 90% of your post..
Your Hearts in the right place..
We all contribute to the Whole..one way or another..
I might not agree with you at Times..but I see past alot..
And, read between the Lines..

Keep your head up..
Do You..and Get Stronger..!!
Z...

Thank you. I know I come off as weird , if you truly believe in GOD and know him , you're automatically weird because most of society is godless. U ever need to talk I got u bro. .

You got to remember money is the root of all evil . I don't need money I don't need physical possession. Clothes food friends and God that's all anyone needs

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[jrup1986]

@zionoir626
I sent you my number. If you're ever my way we'll grab a burger or I'll make some chicken ( I always eat chicken )

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[Fletcher]

Hard to find anyone nowadays not dealing with Depression..in one form or another..

This is another Thread dealing with Mental Illness..
In the Hope of opening up of Others to Benifit..those that think They're Alone..

Personal Insight
I deal with Depression daily..sometimes mildly, sometimes Not..
Some decisions I've had to make lately have been have turned tits up..!!
Honestly, since my girl passed in December, it's been really hard..
I, like most, Isolate...
That's the First Big Red Flag..!!!

Without getting to deep..I haven't been doing too well physically..
Stress,Anxiety and Yes..Fear.
Has been running unchecked..and for years..
Coupled with some bad luck and rash,hail Marrys...
I found myself going down that same Dead End Road...

Luckily...
I have some incredibly great Friends...Family isn't worth a shit..and in a few days,I'll have cut all Ties..
After, some long days in my head...beating myself up about things I had absolutely No Control over...
Feeling Hopeless and Worthless..
I am Almost in the Clear..

Depression doesn't care about who you are,what you've accomplished...
How much money you pull down, how important you are..
Depression is a silent Apex Predator...
Probably with more kills than Small Pox..

We all get down...All..
Without the bad times..it's hard to appreciate the Great Moments in Life..
It's just part of Life...

Dealing with it in a Positive Manner...
That's the Problem..

Most..turn to quick fixes..
Self Medicating, Alcohol or Way Worse..
Which only throws gasoline on the Problem..
Toss in some Guilt and Shame..
And down Suicide Lane we Go..
At least it gets that way with Me..

TBH....
Gabriel is the One Reason...
I'm probably still Here..
Not only has he saved my ass from death many times before..from my lovely symptoms of C...
But...
He's like a son to me..we to depend on each other to survive..
I couldn't ever abandon him..
Without the other...we aren't whole..

So..this Month's Discussion on Mental Illness is focused on..
DEPRESSION..

For those who deal with it, fight with it ...
Share some of your experiences, battles and Victories...

Peel Back the Illusion...Debunk the beliefs that Depression doesn't Kill...

Let's talk about the Unspeakable...
There's No shame in being depressed...
The Only shame...
Is not doing something about before its..
Too Late..
Z...

Man... this is everyone, even the vapent, bubble-head TikTokers who seem eternally, ignorantly blissfull.

Ive known too many that had a temporary bad situation and ended their lives over it.

 

[SiliconeSack]

I have been in a dark hole for almost 4 years if not longer but especially the last 4 years. I lost my Dad, uncle, grandpa and my two dogs in 8 months. Since then I went on a downward spiral, got a divorce because I felt it was better for me. I still get to see my kids mostly my daughter because she’s mine. Have two step sons I raised for 10 years that I see as mine but only get to see them a few times a month which is devastating for me. I break down almost daily but try and keep my head up and work through it. Seeing someone new but that relationship is just as bad in part because I have made mistakes and she has but more because I react to everything. There is no calm.


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[Canebrake]

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[stinkfingerdelux]

I’m going to scream loud every time someone mentions depression, anxiety, trauma, and PTSD. This company saved my life and all but healed me in 5 days. There is still work I have to do but I now have my drive, ambition, and purpose back.

Expert-led Ibogaine Treatment for Addictions, Trauma, and Holistic Healing - Ambio

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ambio.life

Is this experience.. Not sure how to ask.. About ego death. Like a strong trip to strip you of those elementary ties you have to baggage? Something along those lines? Or am I painting the wrong picture in my head

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[Canebrake]

Is this experience.. Not sure how to ask.. About ego death. Like a strong trip to strip you of those elementary ties you have to baggage? Something along those lines? Or am I painting the wrong picture in my head

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Yes it can cause ego death. I can’t even really explain this experience. It cost me $5500 not including flight and a 1 night hotel stay. Knowing what I know now. I’d gladly pay double that. It was amazing

 

[zionoir626]

Man... this is everyone, even the vapent, bubble-head TikTokers who seem eternally, ignorantly blissfull.

Ive known too many that had a temporary bad situation and ended their lives over it.

That's Exactly the Reasons I try and post a thread once a month..
To derail anyone on the Ledge..
And,let them know We All have issues..
Z...

 

[Canebrake]

This is the owner. Give it a listen

 

[Powerhousehb]

I've have been dealing depression and anxiety for 33 years. Always a roller coaster with the ups ans the doens almost dailey or sometimes,

 

[Powerhousehb]

sometimes. It can be a real bitch some days. But I'm a survivor. I always manage to get through some how. I started micro dosing psycoblin 4 days ago at 100mg per day. Today I feel a little a different. My anxiety is gone today. Something haven't felt in years. I feel calm and balanced. Maybe its a placebo maybe not. For today I feel well. As always my PMs are always available to anyone that needs to talk. Be well brothers!

 

[Hillbilly3523]

Og Mandino "The greatest secret in the world" great book that has helped me out more times than i can count. Check it out its small and you read a few pages 3 times a day.

 

[Deezo]

I have been in a dark hole for almost 4 years if not longer but especially the last 4 years. I lost my Dad, uncle, grandpa and my two dogs in 8 months. Since then I went on a downward spiral, got a divorce because I felt it was better for me. I still get to see my kids mostly my daughter because she’s mine. Have two step sons I raised for 10 years that I see as mine but only get to see them a few times a month which is devastating for me. I break down almost daily but try and keep my head up and work through it. Seeing someone new but that relationship is just as bad in part because I have made mistakes and she has but more because I react to everything. There is no calm.


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Man, that's alot, but God will never give u battles u cannot fight. Hang in there bro, I pray you don't break down even once more. You are YOU!!! You're stronger than all of that... I'm sad to hear about your story... Let's be strong together..., your post hit hard... Keep it together brother. I love this shit, we're all strangers helping one another..

 

[Deezo]

Nice thread @zionoir626 . This thread should actually be like top 5 on this whole forum.
The depression is real and scary, it creeps up on you, keep telling yourself you're fine but there's a constant battle between ur mind and heart.... It's terrible.... That's why..... Spread love as much as possible..... Enjoy the ride...

Listening to "everybody hurts" as we speak. Coincidence... Be kind even when mfs piss you off 🤣

 

[Deezo]

sometimes. It can be a real bitch some days. But I'm a survivor. I always manage to get through some how. I started micro dosing psycoblin 4 days ago at 100mg per day. Today I feel a little a different. My anxiety is gone today. Something haven't felt in years. I feel calm and balanced. Maybe its a placebo maybe not. For today I feel well. As always my PMs are always available to anyone that needs to talk. Be well brothers!

You too man, we have spoken before.... I don't know how you do it dealing with your losses... (God Is Great) You are stronger than most here... Lots of respect for you.... Take it easy brother......

 

[Jbswole40]

Derailing Depression is very important..
Because the longer we wallow in It,the more damaging it becomes..
J40...knowing what you're doing is Step#1...

Making a Conscious decision to change your behavior..
Well,that's the super hard part..

I can only say I've failed more times than I've won..Fighting Depression...
But..
Battles are won and lost..
It's the War...
You want to Win..!!

I found in deepest moments of despair...
Reaching out to Friends..
Talking about It..
Remembering the Good Times in Life..
Setting Goals..
A Vacation, if only a day..
Just doing something to break that upcoming Train Wreck..

Don't get me Wrong..
I'm not free of it...may Never be..
I've got a long way to go..
But...
We can find strength in each other's struggles..
And, realized...
It's entirely up to Us..
Z...

Great post @zionoir626
Appreciate it..I'm hit u up tomorrow 🙏

 

[jrup1986]

I messaged a few of you my number. If u need it use it. I know how it is to be ignored and unloved. You're not unlovable. You're unloved. I don't promise you a Bromance but not one voice will be ignored. You're all family to me and I'll always listen. I come to you as a friend and for my friends I will go to no end

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[SiliconeSack]

Man, that's alot, but God will never give u battles u cannot fight. Hang in there bro, I pray you don't break down even once more. You are YOU!!! You're stronger than all of that... I'm sad to hear about your story... Let's be strong together..., your post hit hard... Keep it together brother. I love this shit, we're all strangers helping one another..

I have realized some break downs are good to have. A good 15 min cry on the ride home sucks but feels good after. Unfortunately usually it’s when you feel the worst about yourself and the shit your going through but at the end it works out ok.

I get busy and forget to check the board more than I’d like but this placed has helped me through hard times a few times. I know others feel the same. It’s almost like a little dysfunctional family. .

Thank you for the words they do help.


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[tommygunz]

I have realized some break downs are good to have. A good 15 min cry on the ride home sucks but feels good after. Unfortunately usually it’s when you feel the worst about yourself and the shit your going through but at the end it works out ok.

I get busy and forget to check the board more than I’d like but this placed has helped me through hard times a few times. I know others feel the same. It’s almost like a little dysfunctional family. .

Thank you for the words they do help.


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Those are strong words from a survivor, don’t sell your self short brother.

I lost my dad in a terrible accident 2 months ago. It hurts every day.

You just do what you have to do, get pissed, have a cry, question a lot of things.

Then you push on.

 

[SiliconeSack]

Those are strong words from a survivor, don’t sell your self short brother.

I lost my dad in a terrible accident 2 months ago. It hurts every day.

You just do what you have to do, get pissed, have a cry, question a lot of things.

Then you push on.

I truly wish I could tell you it gets better I was 36 when my Dad passed 40 now and it was unexpected and way to soon. He was my best friend and my dad. The moments are less but it still sucks every day. Little shit in tv shows or movies hit hard when they never used to. Little shit that reminds you of them hit when you didn’t even realize that reminded you of them before it’s weird.

I grew to love hunting and fishing through him and trying to teach it to my kids but it’s fucking hard.

I have learned that you have to push through and still do what you love. It might be hard but I would regret stopping it all and not teaching it to my kids. So gotta push on.


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[tommygunz]

I truly wish I could tell you it gets better I was 36 when my Dad passed 40 now and it was unexpected and way to soon. He was my best friend and my dad. The moments are less but it still sucks every day. Little shit in tv shows or movies hit hard when they never used to. Little shit that reminds you of them hit when you didn’t even realize that reminded you of them before it’s weird.

I grew to love hunting and fishing through him and trying to teach it to my kids but it’s fucking hard.

I have learned that you have to push through and still do what you love. It might be hard but I would regret stopping it all and not teaching it to my kids. So gotta push on.


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I moved across this country from one coast to the other to be near him.
I am spending time with my mom now and trying to be there for her.
Right now that’s about the best I’ve got.