Depression..!!

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Hey...I know about Depression.
It sucks Ass..
It brings us Down..
Kicks us in the Teeth..
It Takes Away..


But
Only if you let It..
I don't have a Future..
And
This may in fact be my last Year..
But I'm not Quitting..
I'm on yr 9...of a 3 yr C..
That's a Fucking Miracle..
I'm an average Joe..
Like most of You..pushing hard to become something..I'm Not.
I've already Won..
Nine hard Ass years..
Fighting the Dragon..

Will I ever be Free..of this..??
No...it will kill Me..
BUT
Never my Spirit..
Never...
ZION
 

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Rooting for you always brother 🙏
 

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And I thank you..
My Brother
Z...
 
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Don’t stop the fight bro! This ain’t got shit on you
 

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Brotha z your tha man always be u. You motivate me fam....

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Can you explain year 9 of a 3 year C. I’m not understanding
 

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As far as depression goes. I battled it for a year. Deep deep. A pschodelic treatment helped me. Cost me a good bit of $$ but it all but erased the feelings I had and opened my spiritual side exponentially
 

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Can you explain year 9 of a 3 year C. I’m not understanding

MCL is a vicious C..
Normally, most live around 3 yrs after the Diag..5 yrs with Treatment..
Dr.s found it in 2014..
Didn't tell me until 2017...
I've had No Treatment..as of Yet..!!
I was also Diagnosed with CLL
two yrs ago..
Coupled with severe neck nerve damage...trying to avoid surgery and a Halo..
Stomach problems, diarrhea nearly 28 days a month..
Horrible Acid Reflux..that's caused 3 bouts with internal bleeding..where I nearly died 3 times in 2 yrs..

Recently...
I've found some things that have improved the diarrhea greatly..only 10 to 12 days a month Now..
Quiting Alcohol and eating better has almost eliminated the Acid Reflux..
AND
PT has my neck pain manageable..still bothers me..
But, I'm getting better with everything..
Except the two C's..

Never a dull moment...lol
Unfortunately...the C's are starting to kick..
I have 3x the node in my throat as last month..
Extremely hard to gain weight, tired all the time and tons of Pain..

I lost 5 people that were either family or close friends the last few months of 2022..
Including Judy..

Battling all this Alone Now...
Well, I still have Gabriel..
But,he's almost 10...
I don't have another Dog to train or even time to Train One..

It's a Lot....
But...
I love a Challenge..
ZION
 

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MCL is a vicious C..
Normally, most live around 3 yrs after the Diag..5 yrs with Treatment..
Dr.s found it in 2014..
Didn't tell me until 2017...
I've had No Treatment..as of Yet..!!
I was also Diagnosed with CLL
two yrs ago..
Coupled with severe neck nerve damage...trying to avoid surgery and a Halo..
Stomach problems, diarrhea nearly 28 days a month..
Horrible Acid Reflux..that's caused 3 bouts with internal bleeding..where I nearly died 3 times in 2 yrs..

Recently...
I've found some things that have improved the diarrhea greatly..only 10 to 12 days a month Now..
Quiting Alcohol and eating better has almost eliminated the Acid Reflux..
AND
PT has my neck pain manageable..still bothers me..
But, I'm getting better with everything..
Except the two C's..

Never a dull moment...lol
Unfortunately...the C's are starting to kick..
I have 3x the node in my throat as last month..
Extremely hard to gain weight, tired all the time and tons of Pain..

I lost 5 people that were either family or close friends the last few months of 2022..
Including Judy..

Battling all this Alone Now...
Well, I still have Gabriel..
But,he's almost 10...
I don't have another Dog to train or even time to Train One..

It's a Lot....
But...
I love a Challenge..
ZION

Well damn brother. A lot going on there. Good vibes and peace your way
 

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MCL is a vicious C..
Normally, most live around 3 yrs after the Diag..5 yrs with Treatment..
Dr.s found it in 2014..
Didn't tell me until 2017...
I've had No Treatment..as of Yet..!!
I was also Diagnosed with CLL
two yrs ago..
Coupled with severe neck nerve damage...trying to avoid surgery and a Halo..
Stomach problems, diarrhea nearly 28 days a month..
Horrible Acid Reflux..that's caused 3 bouts with internal bleeding..where I nearly died 3 times in 2 yrs..

Recently...
I've found some things that have improved the diarrhea greatly..only 10 to 12 days a month Now..
Quiting Alcohol and eating better has almost eliminated the Acid Reflux..
AND
PT has my neck pain manageable..still bothers me..
But, I'm getting better with everything..
Except the two C's..

Never a dull moment...lol
Unfortunately...the C's are starting to kick..
I have 3x the node in my throat as last month..
Extremely hard to gain weight, tired all the time and tons of Pain..

I lost 5 people that were either family or close friends the last few months of 2022..
Including Judy..

Battling all this Alone Now...
Well, I still have Gabriel..
But,he's almost 10...
I don't have another Dog to train or even time to Train One..

It's a Lot....
But...
I love a Challenge..
ZION
My mom has ALS, a form of leukemia.

She lasted two weeks after we found out.

That shit was so quick. She didn't feel well for a while, but just ignored it and attributed it to working a lot. What a fucking trooper. Way tougher in every way then I'll ever be.

I am really and truly sorry you're going through this BS Z.

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Hey...I know about Depression.
It sucks Ass..
It brings us Down..
Kicks us in the Teeth..
It Takes Away..


But
Only if you let It..
I don't have a Future..
And
This may in fact be my last Year..
But I'm not Quitting..
I'm on yr 9...of a 3 yr C..
That's a Fucking Miracle..
I'm an average Joe..
Like most of You..pushing hard to become something..I'm Not.
I've already Won..
Nine hard Ass years..
Fighting the Dragon..

Will I ever be Free..of this..??
No...it will kill Me..
BUT
Never my Spirit..
Never...
ZION
"I will walk, with my hands bound
I will walk, with my face blood
I will walk, with my shadow black,
Into your garden
Garden of stone"
Soldiers walk into hell, knowing death awaits, with a purpose, to save others from the same fate.
With a depth of spiritual strength that is the height of human ability.
No enlistment, uniform or acknowledgement required...
Z, my brother, you ARE a soldier.
In the greatest definition of the word.

Walk on. You are making a difference and setting an example.
 

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I appreciate the kind words Guys...
It's not an easy Fight..
BUT
When you get a bad diagnosis..
You only have two choices..
Quit or Fight..

My sister was diagnosed with C..She decided to Not Fight..
Died a couple of months later..
Fighting isn't for Everyone..
And.. I totally understand when people decide Not to Fight..

I've had three days of Hell..
The Pain and Depression is crippling..
I'm eating close to 4k calories a day, but my pants are falling off..Mornings are unbelievable.
I'm sure it's C...

I pray that someone out there fighting..might read some of my Threads or Post..
And, Find strength to Stand Against..Whatever they are dealing With..
AND
Prevail Victorious...
Z...
 

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I appreciate the kind words Guys...
It's not an easy Fight..
BUT
When you get a bad diagnosis..
You only have two choices..
Quit or Fight..

My sister was diagnosed with C..She decided to Not Fight..
Died a couple of months later..
Fighting isn't for Everyone..
And.. I totally understand when people decide Not to Fight..

I've had three days of Hell..
The Pain and Depression is crippling..
I'm eating close to 4k calories a day, but my pants are falling off..Mornings are unbelievable.
I'm sure it's C...

I pray that someone out there fighting..might read some of my Threads or Post..
And, Find strength to Stand Against..Whatever they are dealing With..
AND
Prevail Victorious...
Z...
Get on the nascent iodine. Seriously.
That and the pancreatin.
 

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Depression suck brother. I’ve had a lot of family never that suffered from clinical depression and it is not only hard on them but those around them as well. Praying for you brother.


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The Gym and my ESP Guitar usually kicks it's ass to the Curb..
Positive methods of dealing with Depression is Paramount.
Z..
 

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The Gym and my ESP Guitar usually kicks it's ass to the Curb..
Positive methods of dealing with Depression is Paramount.
Z..

100%! I use so many good techniques daily . I am super happy and am lucky that I knew that it ran in the family . It can crush a man to actually worse (as my cousin showed us all last year) .
I feel like Bodybuilding and Work(my work) are the top two things that keep me happy and Up!

I literally do yoga, meditation(multiple types) , sleep sounds/you tube hypnosis , learned belly breathing and breath work at 12 years old guess brought on by my (parents were divorcing, but they are together)it was a few years of drama!!

If I wasn’t in a gym or a kitchen or outdoors ED, I would not do so well. I cannot take ssri’s or snri or any depression medication as my eldest brother did for years and (it can) cause you (not to just get Gyno,but to grow breasts ! (not saying it will). But I had to help him for months with his brain zaps and just some very odd side effects . Luckily he got over all that, but it made me look at an early age for helpful support, supplements, music, art , all that . The only thing that I know works 100% of the time is :
#1 Training or Sports (vigorous exercise) any*
#2 Education about Mental Afflictions (just all kinds)
#3 Diet, Hormones, Meds(if needed)

I feel like SAMe works really well but, I originally took it for my liver and joints! It was an accident that I felt this “better feeling” but it costs a lot and I can only take 800mg not 1600mg. It is an Rx anti depressant.

Studies compilation:
University of Pennsylvania’s Department of Psychiatry considered data from 132 studies—115 clinical and 17 preclinical—and concluded that oral supplementation with SAMe, at daily doses 800-1,600mg; SAMe was equivalent in efficacy to Tricyclic Antidepressants (TCAs) and Selective Serotonin Reuptake Inhibitors (SSRIs) in reducing symptoms and improving quality of life. It appears to have particular benefit in depression associated with other medical conditions such as HIV, Parkinson’s, osteoarthritis, and fibromyalgia. In people with these latter diseases, SAMe exerts anti-inflammatory and analgesic effects.

It isn’t the Placebo Effect !!

Head to Head Drug Trials

There are several double-blind RCTs comparing SAMe to various tricyclics, as well as nomifesine, minprine, Lexapro, Zoloft and escitalopram. Early trials showed parenteral SAMe (150-400 mg/day) to be as effective or superior to clomipramine, amitriptyline, and imipramine, but with fewer side effects.

Subsequently, two larger studies—each with roughly 300 patients—found intramuscular SAMe (400 mg/day) to be as effective as oral imipramine (150 mg/day) in major depression.
SAMe may cause fewer and less severe side effects and considerably fewer drug interactions. Moreover, SAMe may prevent or reverse side effects caused by other medications….The risks of SAMe compare quite favorably with prescription antidepressants, particularly in that it does not cause sexual dysfunction or weight gain.

This is an important subject so I thought I’d post some real stuff . Especially on a bodybuilding forum…we tend to have a higher rate of everything . I reiterate, Working out in any fashion on a constant and consistent basis is my far the only “magic bullet or potion” that i surely know helps ! The others are to be discussed with family and/or a healthcare specialist. I always recommend finding a good Psychiatrist, MD first . (not a psychologist* they help but cannot wrote Rx’s in US). Imo/IME - hormone therapy, balance , TRT plus, and getting correct levels (that you) feel good on are paramount as you age . I’m not even close to being a guru, or wise , or anything …this is all my own opinion and I hope it helps anyone or someone .


Max
(Gonna put on my log too, it’s important)** that is why I have my tagline at the end of each log about “reaching at least one goal daily”
 

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Hey...I know about Depression.
It sucks Ass..
It brings us Down..
Kicks us in the Teeth..
It Takes Away..


But
Only if you let It..
I don't have a Future..
And
This may in fact be my last Year..
But I'm not Quitting..
I'm on yr 9...of a 3 yr C..
That's a Fucking Miracle..
I'm an average Joe..
Like most of You..pushing hard to become something..I'm Not.
I've already Won..
Nine hard Ass years..
Fighting the Dragon..

Will I ever be Free..of this..??
No...it will kill Me..
BUT
Never my Spirit..
Never...
ZION

You already know how I feel about this fucking shit. It's in my DNA. Keep your head up my dude. You got this
 
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