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Stats: 5'8, 185lbs
Bench: 275 x 4
Squat: 305 x 4
Dead: 425 x 1
Clean: 225 x 1
32 years old.
500 posts to go so I can quit relying on my buddy every time I need something from gear church. We just received our shipment today so I have plenty of time to keep up this log and post around to qualify for orders 🤙🏻
Bench: 275 x 4
Squat: 305 x 4
Dead: 425 x 1
Clean: 225 x 1
32 years old.
500 posts to go so I can quit relying on my buddy every time I need something from gear church. We just received our shipment today so I have plenty of time to keep up this log and post around to qualify for orders 🤙🏻
Where'd your first post go? Get writers block?
February 18th
Bench Press
135 x 5
-- up to --
275 x 3
Apparently a huge 20-30lb boost almost over night, thank you trenbolone.
Incline Db Press
55 x 8
-- up to --
90 x 6
Various Iso Lateral plate loaded rows. I call them hammer rows because at one point hammer strength was the name of all those machines. Hammer high rows, hammer chest supported rows, etc.
Skull crushers, EZ bar and dumbbell.
Bench Press
135 x 5
-- up to --
275 x 3
Apparently a huge 20-30lb boost almost over night, thank you trenbolone.
Incline Db Press
55 x 8
-- up to --
90 x 6
Various Iso Lateral plate loaded rows. I call them hammer rows because at one point hammer strength was the name of all those machines. Hammer high rows, hammer chest supported rows, etc.
Skull crushers, EZ bar and dumbbell.
Also ran a 5k in 27:00 flat, previous best (last week) was 29:10. Can't find anything regarding trenbolone's effect on endurance/stamina online but this was unexpected. Just could not get winded that night.
February 19th
Hang Cleans
115 x 3
-- up to --
195 x 3
215 x 2
GHR sit-ups 3 x 10
T-Bar Rows
135 x 10
-- up to --
275 x 10
The way I do T-Bar Rows is how much weight it WOULD BE if there were equal weight on both sides. Easier to do the math in my head.
Lots and lots of rear delt stuff.
Some core work.
February 19th
Hang Cleans
115 x 3
-- up to --
195 x 3
215 x 2
GHR sit-ups 3 x 10
T-Bar Rows
135 x 10
-- up to --
275 x 10
The way I do T-Bar Rows is how much weight it WOULD BE if there were equal weight on both sides. Easier to do the math in my head.
Lots and lots of rear delt stuff.
Some core work.
I'm not used to this yet. I barely keep my own records on an app that I use, this will take some getting used to lol.
February 20th
Seated DB Shoulder Press
35 x 8
-- up to --
65 x 8
Seated BTN Barbell Press
65 x 15
95 x 10
75 x 10
95 x 10
Dumbbell Skull Crushers
35 x 8, drop sets
30 x 8
25 x 8
15 x 8
Dumbbell Lateral Raises
With raises I start with a heavy weight and do a few sets of "cheat" reps. Then I surf the rack and start mixing in front raises, half reps, strict reps. Pronated, supinated, I just keep doing raises till my delts are fried.
Plate Loaded Machine Press
45 x 15-20, 3 sets
Seated DB Shoulder Press
35 x 8
-- up to --
65 x 8
Seated BTN Barbell Press
65 x 15
95 x 10
75 x 10
95 x 10
Dumbbell Skull Crushers
35 x 8, drop sets
30 x 8
25 x 8
15 x 8
Dumbbell Lateral Raises
With raises I start with a heavy weight and do a few sets of "cheat" reps. Then I surf the rack and start mixing in front raises, half reps, strict reps. Pronated, supinated, I just keep doing raises till my delts are fried.
Plate Loaded Machine Press
45 x 15-20, 3 sets
Body Weight: 184
Last week's average numbers
Calories - 3800
Carbs - 390
Fat - 95
Protein - 330
I started lifting weights again about six months ago. I've been on TRT for 5-6 years, I got back into things slowly on a cruising dose of test cyp. Weighing in at 158lbs I had gotten pretty disgusted with myself and my body. Once I got comfortable in the gym I upped the Test Cyp to 500mg per week and ran 25mg Dbol for about twenty days. I dirty bulked up to 192lbs over the next 4 months.
I gave myself an 8 week break and my weight settled in at about 186lbs.
Fast forward to Super Bowl Sunday, I pinned some Tren ace and started my current cycle. My goal is to recomp. I wanna be shredded but I'm also addicted to the gains.
Anyways I've always eaten whatever I wanted. If I want to gain weight I have to force feed myself and drink a shit load of liquid calories. I've always been a big believer in a high fat diet. This is actually kind of the first time I've ever been on a real diet, even though I'm not really trying to be in a caloric deficit, I've never been on a low fat diet. I'm going with a 40/40/20 macro goal with maintenance calories.
I've never experienced hunger the way I am now. I can't seem to eat enough on Tren, I'm hungry ALL THE TIME.
Last week's average numbers
Calories - 3800
Carbs - 390
Fat - 95
Protein - 330
I started lifting weights again about six months ago. I've been on TRT for 5-6 years, I got back into things slowly on a cruising dose of test cyp. Weighing in at 158lbs I had gotten pretty disgusted with myself and my body. Once I got comfortable in the gym I upped the Test Cyp to 500mg per week and ran 25mg Dbol for about twenty days. I dirty bulked up to 192lbs over the next 4 months.
I gave myself an 8 week break and my weight settled in at about 186lbs.
Fast forward to Super Bowl Sunday, I pinned some Tren ace and started my current cycle. My goal is to recomp. I wanna be shredded but I'm also addicted to the gains.
Anyways I've always eaten whatever I wanted. If I want to gain weight I have to force feed myself and drink a shit load of liquid calories. I've always been a big believer in a high fat diet. This is actually kind of the first time I've ever been on a real diet, even though I'm not really trying to be in a caloric deficit, I've never been on a low fat diet. I'm going with a 40/40/20 macro goal with maintenance calories.
I've never experienced hunger the way I am now. I can't seem to eat enough on Tren, I'm hungry ALL THE TIME.
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I did a 5k yrs ago..in 20.23
But.. I've got a Mile Run record that's sweat..
Following..
Z...
But.. I've got a Mile Run record that's sweat..
Following..
Z...
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No mention of bloodwork or AI's..
Tren on cycle Two..??
Be careful...
Z...
Tren on cycle Two..??
Be careful...
Z...
Story Time
For anyone that cares. I've been lifting since I was 12, so 20 years now. I got serious about it at age 15. It was all consuming, my life was lifting, learning, eating, researching, and posting on an old forum I belonged to. I remember my log was like the second biggest on the forum, I had an absurd amount of posts. I made a few friends that to this day I keep in contact with on social media.
This is why I don't really want to be on a forum. I'm only doing this to be able to order from the church. I don't agree with the prerequisite to order but rules are rules.
I was 16 years old giving out advice to adults. New members weren't aware I was a child lol, but people seemed to respect my knowledge and contributions to the forum. I was on every day, jumping at every opportunity to teach. Looking back it seems so stupid lol.
As a teenager I competed in powerlifting and totaled something like 1050 at 165 and 1125 at 181. For a short while I held the CA stated bench press record in the 165 junior class. I ran a few 5ks and half marathons, in 2008 I got into CrossFit (before it turned into a clown show) and qualified for regionals in 2010. I herniated two disks in my lower back in a stupid accident lifting in my garage. I was out of commission for months and at the same time my first daughter was born.
My love of alcohol switched from college kid fun to alcoholic adult. I developed an addiction to Norcos after going through a few prescriptions for my back. For the next few years my lifting was off and on. It seemed like every year I would deteriorate down to 145-150lbs, get back into lifting, strength skyrocketing and weight shooting back up to 165-175.
In 2016 I got my personal training license and started my own business. It lasted about a year. I struggled with alcohol and drug addiction through my entire 20s. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in my late 20s but didn't fully understand what that meant. It's hard to accurately diagnose someone who is off and on drugs and drinking heavily.
About 11 months ago I got a DUI and checked into rehab. I got sober and quickly realized that I was in fact bipolar and just how devastating this disorder can be. It explained so much of who I am and how my life had been for so long. All my sudden sparks of motivation to get back in the gym were episodes of mania. Every time, without fail, I would lose interest and slowly drink my gains away in the depressive portions of my life.
I had a bad relapse in October and was finally put on medication. The longer bipolar disorder goes untreated the worse it gets. My manic episodes were so destructive and chaotic. Every time I seem to get my life headed in the right direction, boom. Manic. Boom, life ruining decision. Boom, back to depression picking up the pieces, just waiting for that next spark of mania to come along.
Being medicated, I've been consistent for 7 months now (minus 3 weeks in October). This is the longest I've ever stuck with it since my early days and hopefully I can keep it going for a long, long time.
For anyone that cares. I've been lifting since I was 12, so 20 years now. I got serious about it at age 15. It was all consuming, my life was lifting, learning, eating, researching, and posting on an old forum I belonged to. I remember my log was like the second biggest on the forum, I had an absurd amount of posts. I made a few friends that to this day I keep in contact with on social media.
This is why I don't really want to be on a forum. I'm only doing this to be able to order from the church. I don't agree with the prerequisite to order but rules are rules.
I was 16 years old giving out advice to adults. New members weren't aware I was a child lol, but people seemed to respect my knowledge and contributions to the forum. I was on every day, jumping at every opportunity to teach. Looking back it seems so stupid lol.
As a teenager I competed in powerlifting and totaled something like 1050 at 165 and 1125 at 181. For a short while I held the CA stated bench press record in the 165 junior class. I ran a few 5ks and half marathons, in 2008 I got into CrossFit (before it turned into a clown show) and qualified for regionals in 2010. I herniated two disks in my lower back in a stupid accident lifting in my garage. I was out of commission for months and at the same time my first daughter was born.
My love of alcohol switched from college kid fun to alcoholic adult. I developed an addiction to Norcos after going through a few prescriptions for my back. For the next few years my lifting was off and on. It seemed like every year I would deteriorate down to 145-150lbs, get back into lifting, strength skyrocketing and weight shooting back up to 165-175.
In 2016 I got my personal training license and started my own business. It lasted about a year. I struggled with alcohol and drug addiction through my entire 20s. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in my late 20s but didn't fully understand what that meant. It's hard to accurately diagnose someone who is off and on drugs and drinking heavily.
About 11 months ago I got a DUI and checked into rehab. I got sober and quickly realized that I was in fact bipolar and just how devastating this disorder can be. It explained so much of who I am and how my life had been for so long. All my sudden sparks of motivation to get back in the gym were episodes of mania. Every time, without fail, I would lose interest and slowly drink my gains away in the depressive portions of my life.
I had a bad relapse in October and was finally put on medication. The longer bipolar disorder goes untreated the worse it gets. My manic episodes were so destructive and chaotic. Every time I seem to get my life headed in the right direction, boom. Manic. Boom, life ruining decision. Boom, back to depression picking up the pieces, just waiting for that next spark of mania to come along.
Being medicated, I've been consistent for 7 months now (minus 3 weeks in October). This is the longest I've ever stuck with it since my early days and hopefully I can keep it going for a long, long time.
Ya, blood work was done in December. Everything was normal. Test was at 760 on a cruise dose, estradiol was around 45 I think. I've done about 8 cycles now, you can read above and see that each cycle is like my first again. Starting over.
Current cycle is a Tren ace/ mast prop blend at 150mg PER WEEK, and 250 test cyp per week. Arimidex, half a pill about 3 times a week.
Supplements include NAC, Ubiquinol, vitamin D, zinc picolinate, curcumin, choline/inositol, methyltetrahydrafolate, B6 as P5P, magnesium threonate, creatine, BCAAs, probiotics (about 100 billion per day), taurine, and... probably a few other things.
Cardio 5 nights a week.
2k, 2k, 5k, 5k, 10k.
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Well Brother..
You're in a good place.. There's a lot more to ASF than just gear..
Brothers helping Brothers is our Mindset..
This is a place with lots of Guys struggling with different types of Battles..
I know this because I'm One struggling Daily.. I've been down the Road of Addiction.. many rehabs.
Today I fight a different Battle..
So..good luck on your Cycle.. I'll be Following..
Z...
You're in a good place.. There's a lot more to ASF than just gear..
Brothers helping Brothers is our Mindset..
This is a place with lots of Guys struggling with different types of Battles..
I know this because I'm One struggling Daily.. I've been down the Road of Addiction.. many rehabs.
Today I fight a different Battle..
So..good luck on your Cycle.. I'll be Following..
Z...
February 24
Sumo Deads
225 x 3
275 x 3
315 x 3
365 x 3
405 x 3
Messed up, today should have been shoulders or just a back day without deads. Forgot I literally just hammered myself with squats and some Romanians.
Barbell Rows
135 x 8
185 x 8
205 x 8
235 x 8 pretty heavy on the cheating
Lat Pull Downs ss w/
Seated Cable Rows
3 x 8-14
(drop sets and half reps mixed in)
Construction being done in the house has been cutting off access to kitchen/appliances. Diet struggling, been in a big deficit as a result which is ok but macros not quite where I want them to be.
Sumo Deads
225 x 3
275 x 3
315 x 3
365 x 3
405 x 3
Messed up, today should have been shoulders or just a back day without deads. Forgot I literally just hammered myself with squats and some Romanians.
Barbell Rows
135 x 8
185 x 8
205 x 8
235 x 8 pretty heavy on the cheating
Lat Pull Downs ss w/
Seated Cable Rows
3 x 8-14
(drop sets and half reps mixed in)
Construction being done in the house has been cutting off access to kitchen/appliances. Diet struggling, been in a big deficit as a result which is ok but macros not quite where I want them to be.
If anyone's reading, I've been having a confusing side. As far as I know Masterson has some AI properties to it and Tren doesn't aromatize. My test dose is moderate at like 350-400mg a week.
I've run NPP on a moderate dose and did not need caber whatsoever. I've run test at 500 without needing more than .5mg arimidex 2x a week.
So with my very low dose of tren/mast at 150 and test at 350, why are my fucking nipples so sensitive??
Had my first bout of tren cough last pin which erased my suspicion of having a mislabeled vial.
Am I having a sensitive reaction to the Tren? That's hard to believe considering I had no issues with this on a triple dose of NPP.
I'm taking .5 arimidex about EOD now and am probably gonna blow through my stash. I've taken a full 1mg twice now and each time I'm lethargic the following day.
I've run NPP on a moderate dose and did not need caber whatsoever. I've run test at 500 without needing more than .5mg arimidex 2x a week.
So with my very low dose of tren/mast at 150 and test at 350, why are my fucking nipples so sensitive??
Had my first bout of tren cough last pin which erased my suspicion of having a mislabeled vial.
Am I having a sensitive reaction to the Tren? That's hard to believe considering I had no issues with this on a triple dose of NPP.
I'm taking .5 arimidex about EOD now and am probably gonna blow through my stash. I've taken a full 1mg twice now and each time I'm lethargic the following day.
The generic get blood work answer isn't helpful because I am taking a lot of AI, so in order to see if these drugs are somehow causing my estrogen to skyrocket a blood test would not show that unless I quit taking an AI for at least a week? That's what logic is telling me but I'm not expert.
Weeks 1-2
Testosterone Cypionate
250-300mg per week
Tren Acetate + Mast Propionate
105-125mg per week
These tiny dosages have been hard to accurately measure in a 3cc syringe. Lesson learned. I need to order some 1ccs. Mixing the two in the same syringe is also probably distorting the accuracy of measurement a tiny bit as well.
Sides
My hair has been looking fuller. Weird right? It's been thinning in the back for a few years now. I've inconsistently supplemented with 5% minoxidil and 1mg finasteride. Since starting tren I've been very consistent but these things take time to have a significant impact so this is pretty random. Every time I take my hat off I don't have to immediately adjust my hair to cover seems created from matting to cover my scalp. Besides that, in my opinion, I'd say in the mirror it looks 20% fuller in the back. I have no explanation for this but I'll take it.
Sleep - I've been sleeping great. I still need some meds to put me down but I've been taking half the dose since starting cycle. I still wake up a few times in the night to eat as I always do, but I've been waking up every day at 7:00-8:00 feeling like I've actually slept. This is a first for me in YEARS. The insomnia caused by my mood disorders combined with the impossible feat of rising ready to start the day while depressed has plagued my life. I was thinking I may have triggered mania which would explain my decreased need for sleep and higher energy, but my manic symptoms have subsided since the initial burst but the sleep has stayed amazing.
Aggression/Libido
I'm always pretty on edge. I have a temper, however I'm not a piece of shit human so this is mostly internalized. Confrontation is not my thing. Being forced into it I have no control either, it's either zero or 100. The cycle hasn't really impacted me in this area until the start of week 3. I've had three minor incidents already lol. I asked an employee to do something for me but a nearby customer thought I was talking to him. He attempted to help me out when I noticably raised my voice and said I wasn't talking to you 😂. I quickly turned it around with thanking him profusely for trying lol. A sliding door wouldn't lock for me and I about ripped out out in a short spontaneous rage... And on the way home from the gym my female friend wouldn't stop fucking singing along to the radio so I got out and walked home haha.
Libido is the same. Maybe a little higher? The purpose of this cycle was to attract females more easily. I've met someone already so I'm attributing my constant need to fuck to her and not the tren. I've actually only fapped like 3 times in over two weeks and I've only been with the girl once so far and will be again tomorrow 😂.
Week 3
Testosterone Cypionate
250-300mg per week
Tren Acetate + Mast Propionate
120-135mg per week
Digestion - my stomach has been hurting since the marginal dose increase. Unless I'm up and moving its just a constant ache, gets a little uncomfortable after eating big meals. Have a prescription for dicyclomene waiting for me which will have an added bonus of decreasing the amount I sweat.
Testosterone Cypionate
250-300mg per week
Tren Acetate + Mast Propionate
105-125mg per week
These tiny dosages have been hard to accurately measure in a 3cc syringe. Lesson learned. I need to order some 1ccs. Mixing the two in the same syringe is also probably distorting the accuracy of measurement a tiny bit as well.
Sides
My hair has been looking fuller. Weird right? It's been thinning in the back for a few years now. I've inconsistently supplemented with 5% minoxidil and 1mg finasteride. Since starting tren I've been very consistent but these things take time to have a significant impact so this is pretty random. Every time I take my hat off I don't have to immediately adjust my hair to cover seems created from matting to cover my scalp. Besides that, in my opinion, I'd say in the mirror it looks 20% fuller in the back. I have no explanation for this but I'll take it.
Sleep - I've been sleeping great. I still need some meds to put me down but I've been taking half the dose since starting cycle. I still wake up a few times in the night to eat as I always do, but I've been waking up every day at 7:00-8:00 feeling like I've actually slept. This is a first for me in YEARS. The insomnia caused by my mood disorders combined with the impossible feat of rising ready to start the day while depressed has plagued my life. I was thinking I may have triggered mania which would explain my decreased need for sleep and higher energy, but my manic symptoms have subsided since the initial burst but the sleep has stayed amazing.
Aggression/Libido
I'm always pretty on edge. I have a temper, however I'm not a piece of shit human so this is mostly internalized. Confrontation is not my thing. Being forced into it I have no control either, it's either zero or 100. The cycle hasn't really impacted me in this area until the start of week 3. I've had three minor incidents already lol. I asked an employee to do something for me but a nearby customer thought I was talking to him. He attempted to help me out when I noticably raised my voice and said I wasn't talking to you 😂. I quickly turned it around with thanking him profusely for trying lol. A sliding door wouldn't lock for me and I about ripped out out in a short spontaneous rage... And on the way home from the gym my female friend wouldn't stop fucking singing along to the radio so I got out and walked home haha.
Libido is the same. Maybe a little higher? The purpose of this cycle was to attract females more easily. I've met someone already so I'm attributing my constant need to fuck to her and not the tren. I've actually only fapped like 3 times in over two weeks and I've only been with the girl once so far and will be again tomorrow 😂.
Week 3
Testosterone Cypionate
250-300mg per week
Tren Acetate + Mast Propionate
120-135mg per week
Digestion - my stomach has been hurting since the marginal dose increase. Unless I'm up and moving its just a constant ache, gets a little uncomfortable after eating big meals. Have a prescription for dicyclomene waiting for me which will have an added bonus of decreasing the amount I sweat.
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Following brother. Tren has a tendency to slow gastric emptying that could be why you have the stomach distress after the dosage increase.
I e never had issues with night sweats or stomach distress unless I was running more that 600 tren a week.
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I e never had issues with night sweats or stomach distress unless I was running more that 600 tren a week.
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