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[AnxiousCowboy]

Like most undisciplined losers, I been working out on and off for years. I have had a bad habit until last year of working out like I was still in high school wrestling and would end up injuring myself, regressing, then taking long hiatus. I put my ego aside about a year ago and have been lifting/exercising fairly consistently without notable injury. My most common former injuries have been my back, left shoulder, left knee. I know its trendy as fuck, but incorporating a lot of the kneesovertoesguys shit into my routine has helped a lot.

I also started being much more conscious about what I eat. I am a chef by trade and swear i developed an eating disorder over the years-- I am almost never hungry after tasting shit all day. When I do not care about myself I will end up eating 400 calories a day without realizing, "oh shit i forgot to eat today." I wouldn't be surprised if a lot of my past injuries were from repetitive exercise without developing the "starved" muscles. I have noticed that sometimes my tendons feel weak, ie: i feel like I've been on the cusp of golfers/tennis elbow often after bicep work even when progressive loading slowly;; or, I run or do farmers carry and my achilles/tendon on outside of foot ache after being sedentary for longer than a few minutes (plantar fasc. maybe??) I've been thinking of trying bpc157/tb500 for problem areas but need to do more source research since its a little overwhelming at first haha. ANYWAY--

36 year old male
5'10
I started at 142#
now at 153#
natural goal 160-165#

I have been aiming to eat about 2700 calories a day, mostly from beef, avocados, cashews, chia, whey, dairy, broccoli, etc. I notice if i keep my carbs at around 20-30% and fiber above 20g daily, it's a clean wipe every time I shit lol! (and I never get sluggish from foods) but I want to dial in my diet as well as standardize my gym routine better. I did however start drinking heavily again. I am also totally going to use this as a fucking diary to try to end my bender. I guess the other reason i'm starting this log soon is for accountability, and to try to shift my fleeting motivation into daily discipline. I have already seen very good progress... I had not measured my body fat % but I am certainly more shredded than I way before and muscles are only a tiny bit bigger. Maybe I should start doing progress pics albeit a camera-shy twig (another goal to overcome?) My main goals are injury prevention, athleticism / overall health, and aesthetics. As someone who is recently single, no longer young, and just got a higher paying, more predictable job-- NOW IS THE TIME.

That being said I do not plan on doing a cycle any time soon despite the forum I am posting this in. I am not even close to my genetic potential yet so i just feel like that would be naive. BUT I do however show most symptoms of low testosterone (except libido? my libido is better now that it was in my 20s?) which I have assumed was just depression over the years. After doing more research I have a blood test planned to check my levels this week. Depending on what comes back, I am going to consider TRT and GH (well, not pharma since i'm not making THAT much more money lol-- again more research to be done!). I'd love an excuse to homebrew since I do all kinds of little similar hobbies that I wont get into here. I do take finasteride now with zoloft for about a month. Like I said, I am recently single and have been going through many life changes so I think the hair thinning is just from stress since no one in my family goes bald. idk-- wish me luck on my journey!

I will start updating with my daily meals, exercises, failures, and goals. As well as using this as a scratch pad for any aas type research notes as I learn. Bloodwork scheduled thursday AM, booked with consult through Vitality. Probably should have just booked it myself...

 

[Matt88]

Like you I have a history of a drinking problem. I've been sober for 13-14 months now and haven't touched it. I to have a log and it is in my signature if you ever want to give it a look.

Some guys try to give up drinking bc their partner wants them to, bc they want to save money, bc they kinda want to but they enjoy it to much to fully drop it. You on the other hand are ready to quit. I can tell from your opening post that you're ready. You're the one in control. Not the alcohol. You don't need it. Replace the habit with the gym. Use the gym as your place to distress and take your demons to the gym with you and use them to kick some serious ass in your workouts.

You're doing the right thing by focusing on diet and training before touching PEDs. To often guys jump on steroids prior to having these 2 most importantl things in check. (I was guilty of this).

In regards to you putting your log here on a steroids forum. Something you should realize is that many of us have previous addictions, crutches etc. Rather it be alcohol, drugs, etc. We took that energy or whatever you want to call it and turned it towards our fitness goals. So I think you're in the right place, a great place to have this log.

You should definitely have some lab work done and check your testosterone levels. You could be a candidate for TRT. With you focusing on diet and training the addition of trt if your test levels are low would be a fantastic addition and could change your life for the better. Just something to consider. Labs aren't that expensive and you can even buy your own at private MD labs if you don't have a doctor that will order them for you.

Know that you aren't alone in your drinking situation. Many of us have been there done that. Remember you're in control and you're ready to quit. Alcohol will sabotage all your fitness goals so use that as motivation to quit 💪

Goodluck and stay focused!

Matt

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

Know that you aren't alone in your drinking situation. Many of us have been there done that. Remember you're in control and you're ready to quit. Alcohol will sabotage all your fitness goals so use that as motivation to quit 💪

Goodluck and stay focused!

Matt

Thanks a ton! Yeah, I actually got a bloods scheduled for tomorrow AM. I originally booked it through Vitality which is an HRT clinic who will go over he levels with me and see of TRT/HGH is appropriate but I'll see if I can take it from there. I'll definitely check out your log.

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

7/4

Fourth of july so a lot of work and partying as per usual. Aiming to make this the last week of my bender. Tried hitting my caloric goals at least. I mean, with the amount of beer i've been drinking im sure I do, but gotta get that protein and fiber. I started drinking around noon so I was drunk most of the day and forget what I ate. What a piece of shit. Writing this is def helping me with accountability because I will do this several days in a row and "forget" how long it has been and this will help rub my nose in it.

We got an employee party the 5th so I will try to hit my caloric and protein and fiber goals today but will realistically end this bender next week. Should definitely have time to lift between work and party though. Will update accordingly.


sidenote: Is there any sort of supplement that would help with Tendon repair/recovery? I have a hard time lifting hard and heavy because it seems like my ligaments are gonna fail before the muscle if that makes sense? Like I mentioned above I'm gonna try bpc-157 and TB500 once I do more source research. I also do a lot of my problem workouts with bands which has helped. I went hard on arms last workout and oddly my golf/tennis elbow has fucked off a bit? Sometimes lifting through the pain helps? but I have hurt my shoulder to the point that I couldnt press for over a month? i dont get it haha... I just really wanna push hard without injury and subsequent regression!

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

7/5

Employee party today. I hit all dietary goals for the first time in awhile. Unfortunately I hit a speed bump and started drinking fairly early yesterday and continued that buzz into the staff party. Between work and staff party i did however go to the gym and get a good workout in. ran a little more than usual since my knee was feeling strong. Not sore/regretting it today. Hoping to incorperate biking into my rolodex since I am almost done fixing an old bike I have. Really gonna work hard to standardize my workouts better and dial in the diet/reduce alcohol for next week. psyching it up

 

[Zul]

Awesome!

Looking to follow along with your progress.

I’m 36 male as well.

On the other end of the spectrum though, 235 looking to lean out!

Goal of 200 lbs with 10% body fat.

I’ll start a log too.


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[maxmuscle1]

Subbed in my Man! . Stick with it , the time & effort is completely worth it

Max

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

Sorry I haven’t been around. Got in some trouble after going in a binge. I started dialing my diet back in this week. Still never any appetite (eating disorder) so I was reading about ghrp6 mk677 but seem weary of how fast they raise your igf1 level and monitoring glucose etc.

Anyway— Finally got my blood work back. I think my test/igf1 seem ok? Seems like it’s mostly my kidney and liver things that are out of whack? Hopefully if I stop drinking 15 drinks a day I can remedy that? Bender has only been two months but that’s long enough I supposed. Here the results. I’m at work and haven’t had time to Google each entry yet. The clinic wants me to call them for a consult because I “look like a great candidate for testosterone therapy…” really?

 

[Push50]

Following brother.


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[Androgenocide]

Sorry I haven’t been around. Got in some trouble after going in a binge. I started dialing my diet back in this week. Still never any appetite (eating disorder) so I was reading about ghrp6 mk677 but seem weary of how fast they raise your igf1 level and monitoring glucose etc.

Anyway— Finally got my blood work back. I think my test/igf1 seem ok? Seems like it’s mostly my kidney and liver things that are out of whack? Hopefully if I stop drinking 15 drinks a day I can remedy that? Bender has only been two months but that’s long enough I supposed. Here the results. I’m at work and haven’t had time to Google each entry yet. The clinic wants me to call them for a consult because I “look like a great candidate for testosterone therapy…” really?

Bro, your natty test is really good. Good for you

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

Bro, your natty test is really good. Good for you

Thanks. I was hoping it was low so I could blame my fatigue and depression on it haha—

Worried about the other kidney/liver numbers until I research and understand them better

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

been almost a week no drinking. been eating well and almost back within my macros and caloric range more often than not. supplementing with TUDCA and ALA to try to get that liver / kidney back in shape. Still having a difficult time eating; next to no appetite.

I want to do bloods again maybe in two weeks to see how my levels are especially the metabolic panel. Are there any other tests I should be adding on to check my levels in potential preparation to starting any test, grhp, or gh once I hit some physical goals first while detoxing off this bender? I'd say I'm about a year away from being where i'd like to be first but would like to start running blood work consistently to learn more about myself while doing more research etc.
What does anyone think of Vigorous Steve's tendons of steel cycle
per week:
250 hcg or 25mg DHEA & 25mg pregnenolone
100mg test
50mg nandrolone
100mg methenolone

5mg anavar preworkout

1-2IU GH - daily

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

MEANT TO EDIT THIS INTO PREVIOUS POST BUT THERE IS A 5 MIN LIMIT I EXCEEDED:

I'm doing mostly research on GH/GHRP since I dont think im in test cycle territory yet and my natural numbers looked good for where im at training-wise. I have been interested in running some BPC175/TB500 with some CPC/IPA or GHRP-6... seems like CPC/Ipa stack is more popular right now. GHRP-6's negatives seem like they may be a positive for me though in that you have to eat around your doses regimentally. I have the following in my notes about it:

Ghrp6 -

• 100mcg - 3x a day - when awake, before lunch, before bed.
• ~1000 calories per meal
• Eat 1 hour after dosing
• Do not dose peptide before 3 hours after your last meal
  • 8AM
    • Dose
    • Wait one hour
    • Eat at 9/930 at work
  • 2pm
    • Dose
    • Wait 1 hour
    • Eat at 3/330
  • 7pm
    • Dose
    • Wait one hour
    • Eat at 8
  • ~11PM+
    • sleep

and the following:

CJC + Ipamorelin -

• 200mcg dose
• 5 days on 2 days off

I'd have to be monitoring glucose often but is there any bloodwork beyond that above that I should be running before/during any of that? I am waiting for my liver and kidney levels to return to base, and waiting to hit some training goals before doing anything besides maybe the bp157 which I'd run 250mg daily, locally in problem areas-- right now my right heel/outside tendon daily and when running, golfers/tennis elbow flair ups when hitting arms hard, QL in general which is why im trying hard to hit some rehab goals especially the posterior chain before going hard again and eventually adding any aas

The random clinic i got the above test ordered through was only $109. I think most only places ive seen have been about $130 so i'll have to see if I can get a test again through them and research a little more on any additional tests i should run

BTW I'm at 158 with almost a week without drinking 12 beers a day and sweating my balls off in my barn gym and on the farm a few hours a day at 95 degrees. Still haven't cut all the way to the abs but before I was drinking/eating well consistently I had a hard time breaking 150. I'm going to find my calipers and hold that 160-165 natty goal as long as I'm ~12% I feel like a lot of my injury prone areas will improve with the added muscle weight and less inflammation from abusing alcohol and NSAID

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

oh, also hadnt noted. I stopped taking the zoloft and finastride about two weeks ago. Interesting side-- my loads went from large, to tiny right after stopping prescriptions, to just now becoming normal volume again 🤷

 

[Papasmurf]

I would honestly work on nailing down a consistent diet and training routine before doing anything else. Work on getting your bloods back to normal and eliminating the binge type drinking you discussed earlier. As far as joint pain and other issues you described, I would assume a lot of that came from poor nutrition and very little muscle and lack of strength training. Start slow and work your way up. Taking a bunch of peptides/sarms and other things has it’s benefits for some but only if you have the diet and training nailed down. In the beginning I wouldn’t worry as much about seeing abs and be more concerned with overall well being and how you feel. Build a good base and then you can improve from there. Your test is in good shape and with proper discipline and a training program you should see significant results without all the extras. Leave out all the fluff until you prove to yourself that you can do that and I think you will be surprised at the natural gains you can make. If you don’t have the discipline to do those few things then you are in for a rough ride and eventual disappointment. Just another guys opinion, good luck to you!

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

Yeah I stopped drinking in general and am renailing down my diet and will be back to my normal routine by next week. The abs comment was just because my body fat percentage was lower before drinking lot of beer, and I am almost to my target weight, but want to be there at my previous BF%

My wrist, QL, and knee are all from previous injuries hence the interest in the healing peptides

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

Feeling good today. I have intentionally not done any progressive overloading in two months. I have had a habit my entire life where I will see some progress after putting in a few months of hard work and get over excited then over estimate my progression and go to hard and regress. today I increased weights to return back to difficult low rep range. I am going to start incorporating some more stretch under load exercises. I have been getting good calories and macros these past couple weeks but this week my sleep/eat schedule will be a bit all over the place since im covering some extra shifts at work.

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

very difficult day yesterday personally. but i did not drink and still worked out, just wanted to chronicle it so i can laugh about it in three months

 

[AnxiousCowboy]

I have been really nailing my diet lately. I have however fucked up my back and wrist again so i havent been doing all my usual full body exercises which fucking sucks. Any other skinny guys without an appetite here are two weird things I realized help me hit caloric goals more easily: Eat standing up right in the kitchen and make big soups. I've been making batches of strong stock (so strong its like a jelly jiggler when cold) and then just cutting up and boiling whatever vegetables/pre cooked meats, canned shit, etc and it's easier to pound than something like say Monster Mash (fuck that gruel lol). I mentioned that to a friend and he said that's one of the was Sumo actually get their calories called Chankonabe so im (fairly) easily getting 3000 calories a day now and increasing as my weight increase. I am at 160 now and am getting my abs back ie my body fat percentage is about where it was before i binged for two months.

I ordered more bloods to get done but I got poison oak really bad when i was cutting down trees and am on prednisone so I am going to wait until i am done and off of that in case it taxes my liver and raises my levels. Hoping to see my liver/kidney rates a bit lower since last test and I am hoping to confirm that my natural test is that good consistently.

 

[Push50]

Sounds like you are getting things dialed in brother. You just have to keep pushing. If you fall down, you get back up. Dial in tbe diet and that will help of course staying on a fairly consistent schedule helps as well.
Seeing where you liver and kidney function results are will be important especially since you just came off of a bender.
Take care of the wrist and back. Take it east and hit cardio and light weights till recovers. If you push too hard and really f’somthing up it will set you back further than just taking it easy a couple weeks.


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[AnxiousCowboy]

have been working out much more consistently and diet is still good. Still at 160 but looking more lean. I have been injecting 2x 250mcg bpc157 and tb500 and have not had any tennis/goflers elbow issues that linger for days after a gun run! also knees have felt decent. Lower back can still be fuck-y. Seeing good progression though and am about to take my blood test finally this week to see if my liver and kidney levels are better since I have only drank four times this past month

 

[Draig]

Keep up the good work brother!