Rebuilding myself

[wwheeler500]

Alright guys so you know the story from other posts. I am currently working on rebuilding myself. The path I have been on for 3 years or better has been a long way to hell.
I have been a real pain in my own ass as well as everyone else who has had the displeasure of dealing with me. I will omit the details as they're not a good influence on my brothers.
Finally fall is falling and force-feeding is over. I am not sure what to expect from my aas regimen . I sure know I appreciate you and your team providing kind words of encouragement and support.Sometimes an ear to listen and non critical thinking is worth more than any other therapy available.
I hope that I can be an asset and inspiring to all of the bros who are interested in bodybuilding and aas regimen as therapy for recovery from habits and unhealthy behavior in general.
Thanks again guys for running a good group and maintaining a forum where ALL types of questions and issues are attended fairly and equally.

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[dnewell2004]

Good luck on your journey brotha. I'm here for support and wish you luck.

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[Poirot]

Alright guys so you know the story from other posts. I am currently working on rebuilding myself. The path I have been on for 3 years or better has been a long way to hell.
I have been a real pain in my own ass as well as everyone else who has had the displeasure of dealing with me. I will omit the details as they're not a good influence on my brothers.
Finally fall is falling and force-feeding is over. I am not sure what to expect from my aas regimen . I sure know I appreciate you and your team providing kind words of encouragement and support.Sometimes an ear to listen and non critical thinking is worth more than any other therapy available.
I hope that I can be an asset and inspiring to all of the bros who are interested in bodybuilding and aas regimen as therapy for recovery from habits and unhealthy behavior in general.
Thanks again guys for running a good group and maintaining a forum where ALL types of questions and issues are attended fairly and equally.

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We're all fucking cunts at times....chin up, chest out motherfucker....you're a man, be one

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[wwheeler500]

Good luck on your journey brotha. I'm here for support and wish you luck.

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Hope anyone else who might be interested can use my bullshit as an example and inspiration for using aas regimen and bodybuilding as an option for helping themselves and others.
Thanks

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[BangerP]

Props for being proactive towards your happiness and well being man.

I’ve found the gym to be my church, my therapy & my temple. It always keeps me honest, disciplined and committed; especially if I’m to reach the goals I’ve set for myself.

Take it one day at a time brother. Small steps eventually lead to a greater journey. Focus on winning the day and it’ll add up in no time. Best of luck on your journey


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[wwheeler500]

Props for being proactive towards your happiness and well being man.

I’ve found the gym to be my church, my therapy & my temple. It always keeps me honest, disciplined and committed; especially if I’m to reach the goals I’ve set for myself.

Take it one day at a time brother. Small steps eventually lead to a greater journey. Focus on winning the day and it’ll add up in no time. Best of luck on your journey


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Hey thanks.
That's what's up.
You know... I was on the treadmill last night about to turn a mile (not even close to a sweat!) I was thinking that the guy who was watching me and I am sure is a gym employee was disappointed in the fact I am new and can do cardio like this and not stress. I was at the same time concluding that I am doing something worth and the moment I return to the bed that I am again a nobody who is doing nothing that any lazy ass loser is capable of.
Yea the gym and good health are of UTMOST IMPORTANCE. I realize that if others are afforded the opportunity to meet goals and objectives while seeing marked health benefits that unhealthy tendencies will quickly become a thing of the past.

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[BangerP]

Hey thanks.
That's what's up.
You know... I was on the treadmill last night about to turn a mile (not even close to a sweat!) I was thinking that the guy who was watching me and I am sure is a gym employee was disappointed in the fact I am new and can do cardio like this and not stress. I was at the same time concluding that I am doing something worth and the moment I return to the bed that I am again a nobody who is doing nothing that any lazy ass loser is capable of.
Yea the gym and good health are of UTMOST IMPORTANCE. I realize that if others are afforded the opportunity to meet goals and objectives while seeing marked health benefits that unhealthy tendencies will quickly become a thing of the past.

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You got the right attitude bro. Chase progress, not perfection. And maybe you’ll end up finding your own form of perfection.

Keep up the good work bud


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[wwheeler500]

You know....
WHY THE FUCK? Are these principles not applied by MDs who are in the recovery business?
I mean after a 5 yr battle with methadone maintenance. I dosed last in Dec 2018. To clear the air, also I wasn't on mmt for Ron.I had a realization that I was prescribed too many opiods and the doctors ABSOLUTELY did not give two shits.So long as they got their precious cash.
IMO I was prolonging my bullshit so long as I stayed at home, out of the gym, in a job surrounded by losers who had the same hang ups (no matter the EXACT nature of malady),and negatively thinking. I am SURE I was just remaining in the same type of thing as I was with/without substances.
To be real with you guys I have been thinking about a program that employs gym and trt as a key concept for success.I know it may not suit alot of you guys specific style or genre, but a residential program employing these principles is something I would value your opinion and feedback on.

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[xstarchildx]

Love the mindset, brother!

We all go through shit and many of us have no one who will listen when we need support. I can totally empathize with what you're going through and I'm here if you ever need to chat. Shoot me a PM if you're feeling down in the dumps or need to vent. I can take it lol

 

[maxmuscle1]

You know....
WHY THE FUCK? Are these principles not applied by MDs who are in the recovery business?
I mean after a 5 yr battle with methadone maintenance. I dosed last in Dec 2018. To clear the air, also I wasn't on mmt for Ron.I had a realization that I was prescribed too many opiods and the doctors ABSOLUTELY did not give two shits.So long as they got their precious cash.
IMO I was prolonging my bullshit so long as I stayed at home, out of the gym, in a job surrounded by losers who had the same hang ups (no matter the EXACT nature of malady),and negatively thinking. I am SURE I was just remaining in the same type of thing as I was with/without substances.
To be real with you guys I have been thinking about a program that employs gym and trt as a key concept for success.I know it may not suit alot of you guys specific style or genre, but a residential program employing these principles is something I would value your opinion and feedback on.

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That would be an incredibly good idea. Maybe that could be one of your inspirations as you reach your goals. You could team up w a specialist and design a good program. Nice!

Max

 

[samgraves82]

You know....
WHY THE FUCK? Are these principles not applied by MDs who are in the recovery business?
I mean after a 5 yr battle with methadone maintenance. I dosed last in Dec 2018. To clear the air, also I wasn't on mmt for Ron.I had a realization that I was prescribed too many opiods and the doctors ABSOLUTELY did not give two shits.So long as they got their precious cash.
IMO I was prolonging my bullshit so long as I stayed at home, out of the gym, in a job surrounded by losers who had the same hang ups (no matter the EXACT nature of malady),and negatively thinking. I am SURE I was just remaining in the same type of thing as I was with/without substances.
To be real with you guys I have been thinking about a program that employs gym and trt as a key concept for success.I know it may not suit alot of you guys specific style or genre, but a residential program employing these principles is something I would value your opinion and feedback on.

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My story is practically the same. We all know opiates crush our test levels so why not gym and trt?! It was over a yr before i started the test part, as that was all it was at first before cycling, and it improved my life, well being etc dramatically!

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[samgraves82]

You know....
WHY THE FUCK? Are these principles not applied by MDs who are in the recovery business?
I mean after a 5 yr battle with methadone maintenance. I dosed last in Dec 2018. To clear the air, also I wasn't on mmt for Ron.I had a realization that I was prescribed too many opiods and the doctors ABSOLUTELY did not give two shits.So long as they got their precious cash.
IMO I was prolonging my bullshit so long as I stayed at home, out of the gym, in a job surrounded by losers who had the same hang ups (no matter the EXACT nature of malady),and negatively thinking. I am SURE I was just remaining in the same type of thing as I was with/without substances.
To be real with you guys I have been thinking about a program that employs gym and trt as a key concept for success.I know it may not suit alot of you guys specific style or genre, but a residential program employing these principles is something I would value your opinion and feedback on.

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That said tho, methadone did pull me out and get me on the right track. I did use the program "properly" tho

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[docmartin1020]

You know....
WHY THE FUCK? Are these principles not applied by MDs who are in the recovery business?
I mean after a 5 yr battle with methadone maintenance. I dosed last in Dec 2018. To clear the air, also I wasn't on mmt for Ron.I had a realization that I was prescribed too many opiods and the doctors ABSOLUTELY did not give two shits.So long as they got their precious cash.
IMO I was prolonging my bullshit so long as I stayed at home, out of the gym, in a job surrounded by losers who had the same hang ups (no matter the EXACT nature of malady),and negatively thinking. I am SURE I was just remaining in the same type of thing as I was with/without substances.
To be real with you guys I have been thinking about a program that employs gym and trt as a key concept for success.I know it may not suit alot of you guys specific style or genre, but a residential program employing these principles is something I would value your opinion and feedback on.

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Bro that would be wonderful. I was in the same boat pills , crack , coke, had control of me for a long time . Bit along came the gym. It got me to focus on something else . And it work . I haven't fucked with that shit in over 2 years. It so awesome. Mds your right only want loot that's it I was in Suboxone for 5 years and I finally got tired of them well the gym helped me with that also . I mean I know a lot of us do gear. But it's controled a lot better . We work we function we get bloods to check levels. All that bad shit we don't do anything to check ourselves . Just look for the next high loose are jobs lives and family.

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[Jaredb]

That said tho, methadone did pull me out and get me on the right track. I did use the program "properly" tho

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Awesome to see this im an ex heroin and meth addict am currently on methadone maintenance have been for a year and it has turned my life around drastically currently on my first cycle and plan to taper down but the gym is definitely what keeps me going

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[Bjenks]

Good luck on your goals

 

[samgraves82]

Awesome to see this im an ex heroin and meth addict am currently on methadone maintenance have been for a year and it has turned my life around drastically currently on my first cycle and plan to taper down but the gym is definitely what keeps me going

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Just dont rush it brother. Taper slow but do taper

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[samgraves82]

Awesome to see this im an ex heroin and meth addict am currently on methadone maintenance have been for a year and it has turned my life around drastically currently on my first cycle and plan to taper down but the gym is definitely what keeps me going

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Oh and morphine and some roxi was my thing. H was just too gd much here and usually weak. Till the fentanal came then mofos started dying round here

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[wwheeler500]

Wow.
Better than any response I could've ever expected.Its amazing though how a common ill brought us to a same resolution.
I'm willing to face that not everyone will make it, not everyone is cut out for this, and unfortunately not everyone is meant to make it.
You know I've been overall clean since last December. I quit methadone at 15mg/ day and had nasty withdrawal.Kratom has helped, though I am cautiously optimistic.The past couple months have been rocky, but it's just old habits trying to grasp what they can. I went back in to help a brother out, but it was a praiseworthy endeavor.Slid in gave him some free gear and slid out.Didnt have to.Just wanted to.
Anyways guys now better or worse I feel like you've had a chance to get to know me a little better. I appreciate all the time you took to share and it's a good feeling to know that I am not as different as I had thought.

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[Jaredb]

Just dont rush it brother. Taper slow but do taper

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Definately going to take it slow since this is the one thing thats working for me at the moment no need to rush right thanks man

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[Jaredb]

Wow.
Better than any response I could've ever expected.Its amazing though how a common ill brought us to a same resolution.
I'm willing to face that not everyone will make it, not everyone is cut out for this, and unfortunately not everyone is meant to make it.
You know I've been overall clean since last December. I quit methadone at 15mg/ day and had nasty withdrawal.Kratom has helped, though I am cautiously optimistic.The past couple months have been rocky, but it's just old habits trying to grasp what they can. I went back in to help a brother out, but it was a praiseworthy endeavor.Slid in gave him some free gear and slid out.Didnt have to.Just wanted to.
Anyways guys now better or worse I feel like you've had a chance to get to know me a little better. I appreciate all the time you took to share and it's a good feeling to know that I am not as different as I had thought.

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[samgraves82]

Definately going to take it slow since this is the one thing thats working for me at the moment no need to rush right thanks man

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Yes sir

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[flandersguy]

“We can rebuild him. We have technology.”