I just wanted to tell everyone I quit body building.
I split up from my partner that abused me of 8 years.
I abused myself, immensely in and outside of the art we call body building.
I'm alive. I'm lucky to not be in jail. I'm a smart and awesome person struggling with mental health (duhh)
Going now to CBT and possibly DBT therapy, and living with my wonderful parent, who have supported me through my several falls in life.
Im finding myself outside of this sport by looking at the art of the inside of myself, and using the discipline I learned through my mistakes to be what I should have been long ago and will be by going to my extreme outpatient group therapy.
I wanted to to also say to Tammy from ghraws, that I am truly sorry about leaving the way I did.
I dumped the loads of them away safely, and you didn't deserve that. The anxiety became to much to my already deteriorating mental stability to continue further with you, and I appreciate your good willed nature of our past and hope you are well.
I'm natural and my name is Michael, I'm happy to be here in the world. Bye guys.