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When my Dad passed I was never the same. They say “time” helps. But time doesn’t make the pain go away, just helps you manage the pain better.
Don’t rely on any drug to make your depression go away. Because when you stop the drug the depression will come back.
Need to learn to push forward, stay as positive as you can, and kill it in the gym.
Instead of thinking in my head “why did he have to go”, I think “hes with me, watching over me, and I’ll make him proud”
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Same here man. When the old man passed depression took on a whole different level and it was never really manageable, if that's the best work to describe it.
Before then I was always able to get a grip on, but after that it was just amplified. Surprisingly some people told me that I held myself together pretty well, I laugh at that because I thought quite the opposite. I'll never wish losing a loved one on anyone, not even my worst enemy, it's a pain that will change a person, forever.
The pain one shows on the outside is very different than what they feel on the inside. I had friends telling me I seemed like I was taking it ok, but only if they were inside my head they would understand.
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You got a point.. I had some members in my family tell me that they were surprised on how well I handled it.
But I was deteriorating on the inside and how could they not notice?
I couldn't eat, I withered away, I did absolutely nothing, then some months later I gained a shit ton of weight. Get people told me I was doing well. Wtf.
I would be at work or even driving down the road and this randomly break down,as quick as it would happen it would go away and then it was back to life again.
Ever since I didn't change a type of movies I watch and what not because my emotions are much different. Believe it or not I can't even watch scary movies or horrors especially slashers, it's like my brain has been completely rewired :/
I can relate too well. The entire experience made me a much tougher person, but at times I’ll be watching a drama movie with the wife and it makes me tear up because something in it triggered me to think of my Dad and lit a fire inside me of rage that turned into tears.
Certain songs and certain movies get to me, but as weird as it sounds sometimes I want to feel the pain again to remind me of him.
Our favorite song together was:
Eric Clapton-Layla
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What an incredible thread that will last forever!
This used to be taboo! Posting on this forum along with kicking ass in the gym helps a lot of guys. They can speak to strangers and that can help a ton! Just letting some weight off of you.
Stuffing it down sure does not work. Bless you all and way to be.
Max
So true Max. Mental Health as a whole use to be sooo Taboo. I can remember how embarrassed my parents were that I had some “issues” upstairs. Also how worried they were that someone else might find out and how it would make the family look. To this day my father wouldn’t admit his son has Depression and Bi polar # 1. My parents were my world as a kid so that shit use to literally kill me knowing that I let them down. Now a days I tell my kids straight up what I suffer from and what I’m doing to combat it. All this type of open discussion about mental health issues is what has helped people understand it takes a bigger man to admit it and take it head on than it does to try and hide it. I’m constantly posting the suicide hotline # at the gym I go to as well as a bunch of other crisis numbers Incase some kid or adult is struggling with depression and doesn’t know where to turn. I’m certainly not ashamed anymore. I firmly believe it’s a disease just like any other and some people like me just can’t will it to go away. I’ve needed help and continue to need help every day whether it’s from another human being or meds. I now realize I owe it to certain people not to try and hide it but to fight it everyday no matter what it takes.
If you have a true chemical imbalance of some kind, you need meds IMO.
Psychologist said this once.... depression stems from lack of family, lack of friends, lack of work, addiction, or physical problem.
He said if you have 3 of these, you are practically unhelpable.
Fortunately, you can probably change all those things for the better.
Ppl are angry bc they feel hurt. They feel hurt bc they feel victimized. Sometimes “feeling” victimized is a lie we tell ourselves.
Sometimes we have to let go. Replaying past events of our lives like a movie reel serve to keep these memories alive. A “victim” will do this bc they identify themselves with it.
And if they let go of the past memory, their victimized identity goes away too.
It’s time to let go brothers. Live in this moment. Bc it’s all you really have...
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If you have a true chemical imbalance of some kind, you need meds IMO.
Psychologist said this once.... depression stems from lack of family, lack of friends, lack of work, addiction, or physical problem.
He said if you have 3 of these, you are practically unhelpable.
Fortunately, you can probably change all those things for the better.
Ppl are angry bc they feel hurt. They feel hurt bc they feel victimized. Sometimes “feeling” victimized is a lie we tell ourselves.
Sometimes we have to let go. Replaying past events of our lives like a movie reel serve to keep these memories alive. A “victim” will do this bc they identify themselves with it.
And if they let go of the past memory, their victimized identity goes away too.
It’s time to let go brothers. Live in this moment. Bc it’s all you really have...
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yea i have no family, or friends. I was fine when i had a girlfriend but after we broke up i had no one to speak to and i started to become depressed for the first time in my life.
I was on a date friday, felt great just to talk to someone. Like when i spoke with her my depression symptoms subsided. We walked back to my apartment and she kissed me, i could have invited her up to my apartment for a drink or something but i just was to depressed and couldnt bother. So i just said goodbye. I just had no motivation.
Also it does not help that i am on tren and cannot feel anything with a condom especially on tren so i wouldnt be able to cum even if i did fuck her. I had a girlfriend that was on bith control for 2 years and rawdogged her and cummed in minutes so now with a condom i feel nothing. i can fuck for 30 minutes and not cum (with a condom because girls wont let me rawdog them most of time).
wish i had more money too. im insecure with my small apartment. girls will judge you for it. lets be real here.
maybe will try meds but my depression i think is just from lack of friends or family as i interact with no one.
I don’t think your depressed (clinically speaking) ... you got the blues, you’re lonely ... you’re down in the dumps bro. Just keep your head up and move on. Go do something socially. Travel... find a more satisfying job... one where you are around people or something.
you don’t need meds or anything bro.
plus tren. It can mess with prolactin and give ya some of those nandrolone type head fucks.
Tren is not a friend if your head is not in the right place.
And something else to consider...there's all kinds of sex workers. Sometimes just someone to talk to can make a huge difference. Check this video:
This is a favorite of mine...and there is so much value if you take the time to listen/watch him speak.
Came across this and wanted to share. Worth the time, I promise.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xm_2zmX6Akc