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Something has been troubling me for sometime and I need to come clean..
I'll just come out and say it.. "I'm not magic, like at all"...
For sometime now my little bucka'roo always thinks I'm magical, like REAL MAGIC, LIKE THE STUFF IN DREAM!
He's had some underlining health issues along with his autism, lil champ, but this time last year he was very ill...I knew in advance a certain game that he wanted for his game unit...Daddy went and called around and jackpot, found it... I went and picked it up, but never told him..I carried this thing on me all damn day, riding on my waistline, knowing he will ask me for a magic trick..Then the moment comes, he says "daddy, can you use your magic?" (I had a smile from ear to ear)..
I raised my hands and made these chants and calls to the ever so powerful wizard to grant me the power.. Blamo, I made his game that he wished for appear!
I never seen his eyes EVER light up like that, it took me all that I had not to tear up, literally..He looked at mommy and said "My daddy really is magic"... I'll never forget it, his face and the joy till the day I die..
However, it came at a price...
Now he always asks me to use my magic, and makes some random ass request for something I have no clue on what it is..I end up running around like a raped up, calling around looking for this item and waiting for the right moment..Recently it's gone above and beyond.. I just cant do it like this, its killing me...So I found a app where you change your voice and play it at random times..I made a wizard say in the most creepiest and deepest voice with a echo that lingers for what seems like a lifetime "This is the wizard, your Daddy is out of powers till this weekend"..My little man ran and hid and said he hates the wizard...
Mind you he's only 9, he's autistic, and is mentally not at his age level for reasons..
How do I tell him that Daddy is NOT TRULY MAGIC? Or, do I just suck this up and do as little man wants and use magic, even when its at the most difficult times, like RAIN, SNOW, NO MONEY etc etc etc..??
What have I done??????????
BUT I'M NOT MAGIC!!!!!!
I'll just come out and say it.. "I'm not magic, like at all"...
For sometime now my little bucka'roo always thinks I'm magical, like REAL MAGIC, LIKE THE STUFF IN DREAM!
He's had some underlining health issues along with his autism, lil champ, but this time last year he was very ill...I knew in advance a certain game that he wanted for his game unit...Daddy went and called around and jackpot, found it... I went and picked it up, but never told him..I carried this thing on me all damn day, riding on my waistline, knowing he will ask me for a magic trick..Then the moment comes, he says "daddy, can you use your magic?" (I had a smile from ear to ear)..
I raised my hands and made these chants and calls to the ever so powerful wizard to grant me the power.. Blamo, I made his game that he wished for appear!
I never seen his eyes EVER light up like that, it took me all that I had not to tear up, literally..He looked at mommy and said "My daddy really is magic"... I'll never forget it, his face and the joy till the day I die..
However, it came at a price...
Now he always asks me to use my magic, and makes some random ass request for something I have no clue on what it is..I end up running around like a raped up, calling around looking for this item and waiting for the right moment..Recently it's gone above and beyond.. I just cant do it like this, its killing me...So I found a app where you change your voice and play it at random times..I made a wizard say in the most creepiest and deepest voice with a echo that lingers for what seems like a lifetime "This is the wizard, your Daddy is out of powers till this weekend"..My little man ran and hid and said he hates the wizard...
Mind you he's only 9, he's autistic, and is mentally not at his age level for reasons..
How do I tell him that Daddy is NOT TRULY MAGIC? Or, do I just suck this up and do as little man wants and use magic, even when its at the most difficult times, like RAIN, SNOW, NO MONEY etc etc etc..??
What have I done??????????
BUT I'M NOT MAGIC!!!!!!