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It has finally came time. I am tired of keeping it in. I am an addict. Sometimes, you have to come to the realization that you are not normal, or is that everyone else isn't normal? Either way you look at it, I consider myself an addict.
Many things led up to the point that I had to let my feelings be known. The final straw that broke the camel's back was a small fishing trip. I went and met up with some friends to do some fishing and a little drinking. Granted, I am an alcoholic, but I have learned to put a limit on myself. I thought about things all the way to where we meet up to fish. I packed enough pre- made meals for 2 days.
This trip is something I have done years past and gotten a lot of enjoyment out of. I guess the simple fact that I even contemplated not going this year reveals my loss of interest in it. You see, the thing is these friends I fish with aren't like me. They do not share the same interests as me.
There was a variety of age groups there, but most were right around my age. A lot of you know what that mark is, some of the guys were a few years older. There were about 20 o us there total. It was quite obvious to them that I am a user of anabolics. I didn't realize that it had become that apparent.
It goes to show how hard and critical we are of our own physiques. They cooked really good food to eat. I brought my own to eat. I was ridiculed for that by guys who couldn't even see their dicks. How does that work? I guess what I am trying to say is that my time there I did not enjoy because they are not like minded individuals. I guess my training/dedication has finally reached a stage where I am pretty serious about it, and my lifestyle has completely changed.
All of those guys smoke and drink daily. That is their "normal." My "normal" is now eating properly and being fuckin jacked all the time. It just amazes me that my whole thought process can be rotate 360 degrees like that. The drinking I did, I did not even enjoy that anymore or the cheat meal that I ate. I felt like it was detrimental to my goals and training. Pretty useless to mention, but I probably wont go next year. We did catch fish, did some catching up with some old friends, but it just isn't the same as it was years ago when I was "one of them" and their normal was my normal.
It was blatantly clear I was the superior alpha male of the group. EVERYONE was staring at me, even the guys wives. This made me feel a bit uncomfortable, but at the same time, was a really great motivational tool. I could tell they were envious. I was glad to come back home to my natural surroundings.
I guess I really am an ADDICT. I am an addict of being a jerked mofo that eats right, trains like a beast, and has a physique to back it up. If they are asking you " you on the roids man?" you know you are doing something right.
heres to all my 5 percent brothers. Nice to have someone to talk and vent to on here. Thanks for listening everyone, keep killing it, lets go to gainzville !!!
ADDICT !
Many things led up to the point that I had to let my feelings be known. The final straw that broke the camel's back was a small fishing trip. I went and met up with some friends to do some fishing and a little drinking. Granted, I am an alcoholic, but I have learned to put a limit on myself. I thought about things all the way to where we meet up to fish. I packed enough pre- made meals for 2 days.
This trip is something I have done years past and gotten a lot of enjoyment out of. I guess the simple fact that I even contemplated not going this year reveals my loss of interest in it. You see, the thing is these friends I fish with aren't like me. They do not share the same interests as me.
There was a variety of age groups there, but most were right around my age. A lot of you know what that mark is, some of the guys were a few years older. There were about 20 o us there total. It was quite obvious to them that I am a user of anabolics. I didn't realize that it had become that apparent.
It goes to show how hard and critical we are of our own physiques. They cooked really good food to eat. I brought my own to eat. I was ridiculed for that by guys who couldn't even see their dicks. How does that work? I guess what I am trying to say is that my time there I did not enjoy because they are not like minded individuals. I guess my training/dedication has finally reached a stage where I am pretty serious about it, and my lifestyle has completely changed.
All of those guys smoke and drink daily. That is their "normal." My "normal" is now eating properly and being fuckin jacked all the time. It just amazes me that my whole thought process can be rotate 360 degrees like that. The drinking I did, I did not even enjoy that anymore or the cheat meal that I ate. I felt like it was detrimental to my goals and training. Pretty useless to mention, but I probably wont go next year. We did catch fish, did some catching up with some old friends, but it just isn't the same as it was years ago when I was "one of them" and their normal was my normal.
It was blatantly clear I was the superior alpha male of the group. EVERYONE was staring at me, even the guys wives. This made me feel a bit uncomfortable, but at the same time, was a really great motivational tool. I could tell they were envious. I was glad to come back home to my natural surroundings.
I guess I really am an ADDICT. I am an addict of being a jerked mofo that eats right, trains like a beast, and has a physique to back it up. If they are asking you " you on the roids man?" you know you are doing something right.
heres to all my 5 percent brothers. Nice to have someone to talk and vent to on here. Thanks for listening everyone, keep killing it, lets go to gainzville !!!
ADDICT !
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