Hey guys, im back. I had a very hard time the first few days, typical withdrawl symptoms (shakes, auditory hallucination, craving, mental toture pretty much). I feel a hell of a lot better! Im just pissed at myself for getting over my head after almost a year of frequent benzo use. Of course I started to feel nipple sensitivity on the left side (where I don't have gyno) and a small lump formed. Got home last night and took 12.5mg asin and 1.5mg letro (will be upping to 2.5mg till gyno is gone). My knees are already feeling it (placebo?). Nipple sensitivity is going away a little bit, but will be keeping the letro going. Injected 250mg test e, 100mg test prop, and 100mg npp last night. Heres the weird thing.. I was primarily taking benzos for pre pinning (I hate needles) and bed, but I had zero problems pinning last night, maybe im used to it lol.. looking to invest in Iml dream n grow, just waiting for my new card any day now..
I know its cliché but benzo withdrawl is no fucking joke. I had an idea of what I was in for but I knew I couldnt do it without medical attention, hence the rehab. I was honestly expecting to get slammed on here when I got back, but im happy to see people showed support. I still get one more week off work (they were more than happy to give me it off, my supervisors are great). I realized during this stint that maybe dealing with my brothers death with drugs was wrong, instead my wife and child are a great reason to stay sober.
Feels good to be back guys, will be putting in work on the delts today!!
- OBP