Hey guys, I am a piece of sht and I really fked myself up.
I'm 17 years old, I ran a cycle of Test P for 8 wks @ 130mgs/eod. Nolva 40/40/20/20 pct 3 days after last inject.
I understand, i'm a total fk bag. I did everything against the rules and the safety threads posted on every single forum, i started steroids young. Yes, my excuse was I was heavily depressed and wanted to be "ripped" so maybe I would get more people to like me.... Disclaimer.. before starting cycle my numbers were 225x8 Bench, 365x5 Squat, 405x1 deadlift. So both my friend and I started cycling. He finished off his cycle perfectly fine, no issues, he's 17 as well. Now i'm more heavily depressed and in a rehab program not going to school because of other issues. Now this test problem pops up which honestly kills me.
We both finished cycles mid september, PCT was great. I made even more strength gains on PCT then I did on cycle which was very strange.. finished PCT in october, first 2 weeks off pct were fine. could get hard etc.. making more strength gains.
Suddenly, erections were becoming harder to keep.. my semen was very thick. My balls were shrunken esp my right one.
Losing strength slowly but surely and feeling suddenly lethargic sometimes during my day.
For the past week it has been hell, brain fog, sudden tiredness etc.
Loss of motivation.
I really fked up guys, I understand i'm stupid and dumb, i shouldve paid more attention to the threads. but its too late now. i dont know what to do. If its possible for any of you guys to help me that would be great. thank you..
im sorry for fkbags like me that do this sh#t.
I'm 17 years old, I ran a cycle of Test P for 8 wks @ 130mgs/eod. Nolva 40/40/20/20 pct 3 days after last inject.
I understand, i'm a total fk bag. I did everything against the rules and the safety threads posted on every single forum, i started steroids young. Yes, my excuse was I was heavily depressed and wanted to be "ripped" so maybe I would get more people to like me.... Disclaimer.. before starting cycle my numbers were 225x8 Bench, 365x5 Squat, 405x1 deadlift. So both my friend and I started cycling. He finished off his cycle perfectly fine, no issues, he's 17 as well. Now i'm more heavily depressed and in a rehab program not going to school because of other issues. Now this test problem pops up which honestly kills me.
We both finished cycles mid september, PCT was great. I made even more strength gains on PCT then I did on cycle which was very strange.. finished PCT in october, first 2 weeks off pct were fine. could get hard etc.. making more strength gains.
Suddenly, erections were becoming harder to keep.. my semen was very thick. My balls were shrunken esp my right one.
Losing strength slowly but surely and feeling suddenly lethargic sometimes during my day.
For the past week it has been hell, brain fog, sudden tiredness etc.
Loss of motivation.
I really fked up guys, I understand i'm stupid and dumb, i shouldve paid more attention to the threads. but its too late now. i dont know what to do. If its possible for any of you guys to help me that would be great. thank you..
im sorry for fkbags like me that do this sh#t.