ASF, Please pray for those of us who are downrange right now. I know for you who watch the news thinks the war is over because our nation is pulling our troops back, well this is only true to some extent and I can't get to far into details but for some of you who want a little bit of truth, here is a little... It is true that our nation is pulling allot of our Airman, Marines, Sailors and Soldiers out but what you don't here is what this is doing to those of us who are staying behind. As the government pulls out, they tend to pull allot of advanced weaponry and technology out first. When the locals see this kind of movement or hear rumors, or rumors of rumors, this is when the possibility of an attack is most imminent. This also can leave us digging our own grave. We are in one place... to sleep, to work, to eat, to train and so on and so fourth. But for those people who want us dead, they can easily devise a plan of attack when we have no way of defending our selves. This week, I lost a very good team member of mine and I'm PISSED. I WANT TO KILL, RIGHT NOW! This along with two other casualties that you WONT hear about on the news is making me so sick to my stomach. I've been in so many firefights and now that I don't wear a nations uniform but a "private-Sectors" badge now makes me see things from a whole new perspective. Why the fuck do I do what I do, my heads low right now and all I see is death coming for all of us in the near future. I can't help it but to want to just give it all up. Why am I out here doing this, why do I leave my Beautiful fiancee and my soon to be 3 year old son who's birthday I miss every year, at home. What? because it Pays well, Fuck money. The guys I just lost don't make a fraction of what I make now. I'm sick of this shit. I'm sick of being shot at, devising strategies of how not to be killed. When do I call enough enough. People, friends and family say there so proud of me and that I'm a real man for doing what I have to do. They don't know what I really do, or how I feel like crying at the end of the day when I see a man cut off his wives breast or shoot his son because he cannot afford to take care of him. I'm QUITING my job. I'd rather work at Wal-mart every day as a door greeter but be able to come to come home to my wife and son. I'm done guys, I am just done........... Just please pray for us. I've got only 50 days left and I want to come home. I just want to hold my wife and son in my arms as a family.
